My advice would be pray about it...

I never thought I would have children... I was 25 when i got divorced and we never had any together. I accidentally got pregnant and my "most stupid" BIGGEST fear was that something would happen and i would have to have a c-section. I thought it wouldn't be fair... like i would miss the "real" experience of having a baby.

My pregnancy was a nightmare.. i spent the whole 10 months so depressed... then HAD to have a c-section.

But now that he is here.. the pregnancy and c-section... are so the past.. Now he is my whole life.

Although you want to experience being pregnant.. once the baby is here .. you never really think about it again (well i don't)..

If you have other options like adoption or a serrogate.. pray about them. Things happen for a reason. You may be here to be a mom to another special person.. and once they are in your life... that is all you will think about.