I haven't cried today, but two days ago was just a slap in the face.

This guy I kinda/sorta am friends with finally told me he liked me and wanted to date me, at one point. He then goes off to tell me that he doesn't want to date me anymore because he thinks that I don't know what I want, and that I just want someone to care about me. He then proceeds to give me a huge lecture about how I need to grow up and stop being scared about relationships, and I just need to let go of all the stuff that's dragging me down. It not only made me sad, but it made me angry because HE is the one who won't get into a relationship because his ex-gf "ruined" him.

But that night, after everyone told me I was being the bad person and chasing HIM around (which I wasn't), I realized that he's partially right. I don't know what I want and I'm terrified to be in a relationship again. I got tossed around so bad in the first one, I don't know what the hell to do. My emotions are just really out of whack and he TOLD me that, and I finally accepted it.

*sigh* What a good ranting thread. Hugs to everyone, we'll make it.