It's never easy, to be sure, but you're doing what's best for Alex and that's what counts. It would be selfish to keep him only existing the way he is now. You'll be there to comfort him every step of the way and he'll love you for it as he has loved you for the kindness you've shown him. He'll be waiting for you at the RB as Gary would say, "one fine day". A candle burns for you both.

Blessings,
Mary