Well, I took Alex to a very well respected vet today that is at a "referral" center. From 8pm to 8am it's an ER and during the day it's a referral center. They cost a fortune, but have specialists there who are wonderful. He had some great insight about Alex, although I was hoping for something a little positive, but didn't get that at all.

What Dr. Ron concluded is that Alex has a tumor that started in his sinuses and has started eating away (his words) into his brain. He showed me how if it would be a brain injury from a fall, since the bump is on the right side of his head, his motor skills would be affected on the left side of the body. Unfortunately, his right side is majorly affected. He picked up Alex, and holding him in front of the exam table, moved him toward it. Now, the legs on the left side lifted up slightly. The right side, not at all. They just basically stayed limp. He said that the circling counterclockwise is another symptom of the damage to that side as well.

He doesn't recommend chemo, radiation or even surgery. He said that the chemo and radiation for the brain tumor wouldn't help his quality of life, and that if he tried to remove the tumor, Alex more than likely, wouldn't make it off the operating table.

He didn't say whether Alex is in pain. I wonder that. He is comforted when I hold him, and I could do that 24hrs a day if I was able to. Unfortunately, since I work all day, I can't do that. I even emailed some of the volunteers in our shelter to see if anyone was home, like retired, during the day, because he really needs more one on one care. So far, no bites

Alex is still at the vet. Dr. Ron wants to do some xrays and other things just to verify his diagnosis. I didn't want to leave him there overnight, because he's going to be so alone, but I can't be at home tomorrow to take him back to the vet. Darn job! We had off today because of snow, so that was a break for me, and I was glad to be able to stay with Alex. I just wish it would get really bad overnight and we'd have off again, but I'm sure that's not going to happen.

Keep Alex in your thoughts and prayers please. He's a sweet sweet boy who so does not deserve this. I'll figure out how to care for him, even if it means I take him to work with me (the principal can kiss my butt if he doesn't like it). I won't have him suffer and die alone.

Thanks for listening...