please, please believe me when i say, you have nothing, not one thing to apologize for. sometimes, heartbreakingly so, as much as you try and love an animal, it can't be. no one here at PT could ever think poorly of you, you've moved mountains for cats, but sometimes the mountain is too big to move. what you decide, will be the right thing for ally, and for you, you will have done everything from love. ((hugs))