The good news is that I spoke to my GP on Friday and she gave me a note to go back to work...just two days per week for Dec. I have an appt to see her Jan 10 and at that time she will re-evaluate me and we'll come up with a work schedule for Jan and Feb.

The bad news is that the "final" results came in from my recent CT scan. Sure, there are no blood clots, but the small node in the right middle lobe has grown by 2cm since August. This is bad because typical carcinoid tumors don't grow that fast. It has to be another kind of tumour. I have to have another CT scan in 3 months and if it's grown again, then it's back to the surgeon for a plan of action.

I have so many questions and my mind is whirlwind again. I'm very emotional and depressed right now. If it's another kind of tumour then my prognosis is not that great even with radiation and chemo.

Again, I'm sorry for venting but I feel so alone right now.