kim, my hospital chain has support groups for custodial grandparents, does your local hospital have something similar? the experience, strength and hope of others who are in your (baby) shoes can be invaluable. and i'm going to suggest ala-anon. this group is for families and loved ones of those with chemical dependancy issues. it has been invaluable for me in my life. hugs again this morning, i woke up thinking of you.