I can barely imagine going through this, it must haunt your every waking and sleeping moment. Pete was a hunk with some wonderful quirks to his personality, and how well they were observed and described. I hope you did not lose any of the "special" cats from your shelter that you described to us so well, some very unadoptable cats but very appealing at the same time. We share your sorrow and despair, and will look forward to hearing from you in the near future that this dreadful disease has taken its toll and moved on.