That poor girl.She needs to be fixed ASAP.She'll be scared forever if you don't.They are so much like humans.I can't believe how much Vet's charge for getting your cat fixed.It's rediculous.But if you cannot find someone who will do it for free,call a vet and tell them the story and they may do it for you.Sometimes they need to here a story to do it for free.Tell them it's worse than what YOU see.