Audrey,

You are in my thoughts today. Be strong for Rufus, but when he is gone, let the tears come. Don't hold anything inside. You gave Rufus a very loving life and it is time to let go, but he will be waiting for you to cover you with kisses once again.

I have never had to make the decision to put an animal down. Mine have gone in their sleep. I am terrified of having to make that decision one day. You are being so brave about it and I hope that I can handle it with as much grace and dignity as you have.

I had my Dessi cremated and spread her ashes (along with some pink roses) in a lake nearby my house. I used to walk her to that lake all the time and she'd run with the ducks. Doing that helped me get closure.

Another thing that helped is I had my Shiloh to lean on for comfort. She was still in her goofy adolescent stage and kept my family laughing and smiling during the difficult time. I know Josie will do the same for you. Seek comfort from her and don't be afraid to show your emotions.

I hope you are doing okay right now. I know this day will be so hard. You and your family are in my prayers.