aw sweetie ((((hugs)))) That's a really tough situation for you. Could you maybe put an add in the newspaper for a part time babysitter? Then do interviews and check references, maybe you can find someone else you like. I don't have kids yet, but I totally agree with you and understand your position, you want to spend as much time as possible with Aiden. I think you are right for wanting to spend that time with him, he'll only be that age once.