Well the party was great, I had a blast hanging out with everyone and especially Mike. I didn't think it would be as hard to see him as it was, we didn't talk to each other for the first hour due to the awkward tension between us that neither of us wanted. I said nothing, I made him be the one to say something. He came over and said hi, asked where my friend was because she was supposed to come. The tension then broke, we talked, hung out, and after a while he had me bowling with him, Tony, and a kid named DJ. Mike danced a lot too, it was so funny to watch. So I hung out with Mike, watched him play pool and bowled with him some more. He came over to me again as he left, and we walked to his car together. He asked me if I would be online at all, and I said I would. He said bye and left.
I talked to him that night online and he said that he was really happy I was there and I hung out with him. He said he wanted to hug me as I left, but he backed off, not knowing how I would react because we aren't together anymore. He also mentioned how he tried to hold my hand again (it's happened before, and both times I was completely oblivious, stupid me...). He said he would have given me a ride home but I didn't really ask. I sort of hinted that I wanted him to give me a ride home, but he didn't catch on.
We talked and he said even though we aren't together, he still loves me. The reason he cut it off in the first place was because he didn't have time to hang out with us most of the time and he felt bad and I was making him feel bad about it. Me sending him on a guilt trip was not intentional, and I made sure he knows that. He said he wants to think about it for a bit, but if I'm willing to let him, he wants a second chance.
What should I do now? I love this kid to death, but I just want him to make up his mind. Like I said, I didn't realize how hard it would be to see him, but I love him a lot, we have such a great bond. He always makes me laugh, whether he's trying to or not.
Like I said, I love him. He wants to do something tomorrow for Valetine's Day, but I have to work so he moved it to Wednesday. I'm not sure what's planned, we both want to see Final Destination 3, so that's an option. A scary thriller to bring us closer?
We'll just have to see what happens. I'll post a few pics. The first one is Mike and Tony dancing to Barbie Girl by Aqua.. I think, lol. Tony is the one with the white jacket, Mike has the black Choppers shirt on an a baseball hat. The second one is them dancing to something else, but man, they were both getting their groove on, lmao.
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