Oh Johanna, I am so glad that you are writing about how you feel! Can you be a little more friendly to yourself please! Just look at what you have gone through in the last year. It's absolutely right:

Quote Originally Posted by Cataholic
Tex's death came at the time my niece, Samantha, was so critical.
Yeah- and there were other events as well: becoming a mom is a positive event but still an event that changes your life more than anything!

You simply can't be over everything you experienced in the last year. And it will take more time.

Just think of Debbie and Tubby and Kim and Tucker- they have been so close together as you and Tex- and I know my time will come too as my heart kitty has already his deadly disease in him. I will need all your hands and shoulders when his time comes

When Samantha was so critical and all of your family was concentrating on her in a way I admire more than anything you certainly didn't have the time to grieve for Tex the way you needed it. And now as Samantha is slowly recovering these feelings come back in your heart.

You need the energy of your soul for your close family (that is Jonah and the states) and for your extended family- it's time that you take a little time for yourself.

And please don't feel guilty for Georgia. I am sure she'll have the best life ever at Lillycat's house and if she bonds with Indra she can easier come over Tex' passing. I am sorry for you because she is another one you are missing.

Please come here or PM me whenever you want- I send you thousand hugs!