I will need lots of extra candles... . This is what I am talking about
http://www.petoftheday.com/talk/show...light=epidural

I didn't mention it, but my neck was getting worse for some time already. Now I am a point where it is unbearable again. Nothing helps, exept very strong painkillers (help a bit!) . My dad got operated a week ago, and I was not able to visit him before yesterday. My sister arrived too, and she brought about 7 meals for my parents, enough for the next week. Oh my, I felt so guilty because I was unable to do a similar thing. All I could bring was a bouquet of fresh flowers from our garden... . She didn't say much to me; I am afraid she doesn't get it why I cannot do more...

On Wednesday, I am going to the hospital again for another neck epidural. Maybe I will need more! Although I need help, I am so very much NOT looking forward to this . It was horrible last time, so.....
I shouldn't be here on my pc. But laying down doesn't take away the hurting, so here I am. I know that I need you all, PT-prayers are so powerful!!

sorry for venting.......