For the last time NOTHING underhanded, coniving, devious or hurtful happened with Maddie. NOTHING. We had our reasons. ENOUGH already! You are beating this subject to death. If you all don't know how much I love animals by now then you are blind. Just because we chose to get rid of Maddie doesn't change that!!! Things that were the way there were two months ago are different now... settled, routine, easier. I told you not to judge. And Aly, YOU DON'T NEED TO UNDERSTAND! Why? Because it is none of you business!

And I DO NOT apprecitate the impliance that I screwed up and I am living my own personal hell. Candy, you belittled me and YOU HAVE NEVER MET ME! I didn't screw up. WE made a decision. Together. I didn't not even think of asking Pet Talk for help. The thought never crossed my mind... I told you all before, I underestimated you all.... not to mention not thinking an entire country of people could help her. It would have been great had I rallied you all myself... BUT I JUST GOT DIVORCED, MOVE ACROSS COUNTRY AND HAD SOME ADJUSTING TO DO! JESUS!! Sorry that my mind wasn't exactly clear.

Bodie isn't a mistake and won't be given up. I told you, things are different now. We are settled now. Able to handle certain things better. But again, that is no business of anyone!

And YOU need to heal from this? What about me!!!! For God's sake? I rescued that dog and took her in and loved her with all my heart! You all know the story! If I was such a terrible person why did I do that! THAT PART OF ME HAS NOT CHANGED! My love for animals is deep, very very deep and doesn't stop at dogs. I shouldn't even have to stress that.

All I did was ask Logan about pictures and Aly, you had to bring this up again. You couldn't let it go... well you know what, take your bleeding heart opinions and give them to someone else. Oh, and I must thank you for backing me into a corner so that I have to act like and angry dog. Even the nicest of dogs can turn evil when backed into a corner.... Now I look like a complete bitch. Thanks Aly, I'm sure you are more than happy about that.

Good-bye everyone...... I will really miss it here
I'm sure I won't be missed now.