Originally posted by catnapper
There were dozens of other tests way before now - you're in the final semester of school already! Did you not ask questions in class - after class - share notes? Get study buddies?
And yes, real life stinks where there's days I don't get the luxury of computer time or TV to goof off for even ten minutes. Right now, instead of goofing off for an hour, I'd be studying like mad... because if you don't, you'll be doing this all over again next year. If you do study and forgo your hour of fun NOW, then next year you can have more time to yourself because you'll be out of highschool and onto something else.
Actually this is the first test we'll have had this term. We rarely have tests. I'm failing because in first term I missed a big assignment because I was sick. That was back when I was sick for like two weeks. There was no way I could go to school. He passed me on the other assignments I has missed, but he decided not to pass me on the biggest assignment. After that, I got fairly good grades on everything, but in the end, because of that one assignment, I got a C- overall. The next term I got a C+ which is good. Now I don't know what I'm getting, but my mother says if I fail this term than there's no way I can get through the year.

The thing is, I really need atleast an hour, or I go insane. Even with that hour I have constant panic attacks because I'm so stressed out. I need a break to get myself sorted out. When I feel crowded or overworked, I get really anxious. Even today, I lost the manager at Petcetera where I was jobshadowing and I started to have panic attack. They have been worse, but I'm not used to having them in the summer time. The counsellor wants me to go to a psychiatrist to see about getting some ADD medication, but my mom doesn't want me to. I think the ADD medication would help because I can't stay focused..I have such a hard time. It's so hard getting angry at yourself for not being able to pay attention. I get frustrated so easily.

I think one of the reasons English isn't doing well is the teacher. I've ALWAYS gotten A's in English. English is by far one of my best suits. I like to think I'm fairly well spoken, and when they tested my English skills in grade 10, they told me that I'm at a college level. So it wouldn't make sense that this ONE year, I'm suddenly getting average marks. I've found that one thing about me is that I am always better in a class with a teacher that I really like.

I'm thinking about switching out of English and into Communications, just so I can get away from it. I hate being avoidant but at this point I feel that it's in my best interest. I don't know what to do.