Poor Randi, this must be so hard to accept ..... . John and you always were together, and now his sudden absence must be like a huge big emptiness... . I cannot find the right words, but I am sure you understand what I am trying to say.
It must be so difficult to deal with this and go on with your life. But think that this is what John would want you to do. If possible, please come back to Pettalk. There is a huge family of friends here, waiting to comfort you, and wanting to help you in any possible way. Take your time Randi, hug Fister, and knowyou may always pm me or even contact on ICQ!
(((((((((HUGS))))))))))