I need to tell everyone something...

[bckrazy]

hey Tina I dont know anything about your situation, but I do think it's sad that you take things said here so much to heart. DONT! These boards and the people here and not here to judge you, they are here to give advice, opinions, and support. No matter what, we have all had PT people disagree with our decisions, you should not let it hurt you that much.

If you do feel so guilty about getting this puppy, maybe that is really your conscience talking? Can you afford to neuter/vaccinate/medicate, and possibly pay for the bills for this pup if he becomes sick (which SO many puppies from BYB's do!!)? I think the only reason anyone is angry/sad over this is for the animals, not because they dont like you! Personally, I would not be able to cope with 4 dogs on top of other animals and kids and having such a horrible thing happen to my home (), and financial problems, and depression! Its way too much to put on yourself, maybe the real solution to you feeling so bad is to make it easier for yourself... imho, if I were you I would foster this puppy! Neuter him, get him all healthy, socialize him, and find him an amazing home. If anything, THAT would make you feel very good!

On the other hand, I'm not telling you to adopt out your puppy. This is your decision, and you know better if you can handle this than anyone else. Just remember, puppies are a lot of work! They require huge amounts of exercise and time and exhaustion, they go through endless amounts of chew toys, and they should go through Obedience classes, which can be expensive. They are tons of work for anyone! Let alone a mom with 3 other demanding dogs, and a house to re-build! It sounds like a really tough situation ... whatever decision you make, I will not bash you for it. It's your life