Henry is doing okay at the moment. Since coming home from the vets on Sunday afternoon he has stayed in my neighbours house. He hasn't asked to go out, he's sat by the front door, but then loses interest and goes asleep again. She doesn't want to let him out as she is afraid he may die whilst he's outside, and I also wouldn't want that. I went to see him yesterday and he was sleeping on the stairs after having had some fresh haddock for his lunch (with anti-biotics mixed in)
I have to admit I am missing him, and I do wish he was with me, but naturally if he's staying in her house, I can't ask for her to let him come over, as I don't think it would be right. She feels he should be with her, and I respect that.
I am very sad about Henry, but I made a point of not letting myself get too attached to him as I knew he wasn't my cat, just a cat that wanted to come in our house, and cats are pretty whimsical and I was aware he could change any time. I feel honoured that he chose to come and be with us for so long though, but if he is happy being in his own house and just relaxing then that is fine with me, even though I miss his presence.
Obviously even when you don't try to get attached you do, and I do feel a certain love for him and affection. But as his outlook is not good it is probably a good job that I didn't ask to adopt him, as losing him would've been really hard.
Going back and forth to the vets with Henry and my neighbour (she doesn't drive so has no other way of getting there) has brought all the horrible memories of Jack's last weeks back and I have felt that wave of grief come on very strongly again, I constantly think of Jack anyway, but currently i'm feeling that horrible hollow feeling in my chest, the emptiness and despair of grief.
But I've wanted to be there for Henry's sake. I have done all I can for Henry. I don't mind helping my neighbour, but I haven't helped really for her, I've done it all for Henry even though it's been sad and painful.
I hope I've made Jack proud in helping Henry, I've done the best I can to help him and his owner.
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