Next Wednesday....

**catnapper** · 11-23-2005, 09:35 AM

I drop off Flutter next Wednesday night for amputation surgery Thursday. I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. I feel like I failed her somehow. I know its going to hurt, and I know she doesn't deserve to hurt.

Of course I know that now she will never have the pain she has with the half leg. She won't be bumping it and cutting it open. She might actually get around better because she won't be hitting the bone. Bone pain is awful, so I hope she knows this is for her own welfare. Still, I can't help but feel guilty and sad.

I have one week to take a million photos of her little half leg, so that I have a memory of what it looks like.

**Laura's Babies** · 11-23-2005, 09:51 AM

OH MY GOD! I would be a basket case and cry like a baby every time I looked at her and soaking her fur with my tears several times a day! I know you are so outdone and worried and I would be too!

BUT, we all KNOW she will do well once healed and have a better life because of it. This is one of those things you wish you didn't have to do but know you DO to improve her life and save her further pain and problems. I know without a doubt that all of us PT'ers will keep her in our prayers. Be strong and keep the faith! Trust in God and he will see you through this. Kiss Flutter for me!

**moosmom** · 11-23-2005, 10:48 AM

Catnapper,

I know how you must feel. But take comfort in knowing that once the amputation is done and she's healed, she'll be MUCH better off and won't know that she's a special needs kitty.

(((((HUGS))))))))))) and prayers to you both.

Love,

Donna

**lvpets2002** · 11-23-2005, 11:10 AM

Yes I can relate to your feelings due to my Yardleigh had a half leg that had to be amputated & now she does just great.. I dont feel that you have failed Flutter due to you have given her so much of your Love & Heart.. Hang in there & Flutter will be fine..

**Karen** · 11-23-2005, 11:18 AM

Now, now, mom, Flutter will be fine. And we all know she'll still make everyone's heart flutter anyway.

**Donnaj4962** · 11-23-2005, 12:29 PM

Oh my, I can only imagine how you must feel with her having to go through this. But you must know that you have NOT failed her. You have given her so much love and she knows that whatever happens that love will always be there. She knows this... she just isn't able to tell you this with human words. You will give her so much love after the surgery and she will heal quickly. Warm thoughts and many prayers coming your way for both you and Flutter.