Had to put my "baby" to sleep last night

[Jo-Anne W]

Hi everyone. I was on the site before under the name Jo W.

Sadly, last night, had to rush my 23 year old "baby" brown tabby cat Roxanne to emergency vet services and they had to put her to sleep.

Up until yesterday, she was happy & healthy, acting like a kitten, running up & down apartment hallway, jumping on & off couch/chairs/table/kitchen counter, great appetite, playing with toys, etc.

She vomited numerous times but I thought she was going to be OK. Things took a turn from bad to worse, she tried to stand up and walk, fell over, started convulsing and her eyes were glazing over. I freaked out, pretty much thinking that I was watching my cat dying right in front of my eyes!

The vet said her vital signs weren't good.

Anyhow, I've pretty much been crying on & off since last night then feeling total disbelief/numb/shock. It was VERY difficult coming home and seeing her food & water dish, her litter boxes, toys, etc. It was also really difficult as her dinner time approached.

Out of exhaustion, actually fell asleep last night for about 2 hours. Woke up at 2:30am and can't get back to sleep. I found myself going to check her favourite spot (chair with blanket in livingroom) and saw that she wasn't there - then looked around the apartment, noticing that she's not there. An odd feeling. The apartment seems so empty and quiet without her. My common-law partner Mark and I are both so sad.

I still can't believe she's gone and everything that happened last night. A lot more stuff I'd like to say but just too tired and sad at the moment.

[Karen]

Awww, our condolences. Rest in peace, Roxanne, the pain is over. You had a good long run with your mom, now send her some purrs in her dreams to let her know you're okay and waiting at the Rainbow Bridge meadow for her.

[Freedom]

You have lost a family member. You will experience the grieving process; this is to be expected.

Roxanne went quickly. For her, this was a blessing. For those she leaves behind, it is such a shock, you can hardly wrap your head around the fact that she is gone. You had no warning, no time to adapt to the change in your life.

Each person grieves differently. For some, looking at photos of happy times, remembering when she did this or that, helps. For others, they can't think of the lost loved one at all for a few days, a week. As the grief progresses, what you couldn't do may next become imperative - you couldn't look at old photos for a week, suddenly you can do nothing else. I hope this helps you a little bit, as this difficult time.

I am so sorry for your loss. Dear Roxanne is now at Rainbow Bridge, and free of what ailed her at the end. RIP sweet kitty.

[issop]

you have blessings roxanne and now your with all other kitties that went before you.. .. i had a cat called cyrus for a few months a very old cat and suddenly he got weak and lay in the cat carrier i cried and took him to the vet where they gave hime a shot to make him comfortable before putting him to sllep has was a tabby siamese and followed me everywhere even to the store . he followed me back home and would sit in the windwo of a house across the street.. this was about 11 years ago he just suddenly walked and staggered about and theni picked him up and broguht him in.. i called the vet to make arrangments for cyrus. he was older then i thought.. he passed away peacfully. like your roxanne went peacfully.. it is sad when we lose a loved one of the anmila family and while there here on earth they are the worlds greatest pet.... may God take tacre of you through your losse of roxanne and keep you safe and heal inside.. this world is temporary and when we go home we are reunited whith everyone we knoew and didnt know.. rest in peace and know roxanne is safe and well at the bridge.. please get another kitty. it help the loss and you get another pet and they love you.. (happy mothers day) 20120512.0748

[phesina]

I am so very sorry. Rest in peace, Roxanne; what a wonderful long life you shared with your beloved Jo-Anne! Now you are whole and healthy again at the Rainbow Bridge, waiting to greet her and welcome her home, One Fine Day..

Deepest sympathy to you, Jo-Anne, and all who love Roxanne so very much.

[Taz_Zoee]

I am so sorry. Roxanne had a lovely long life with you. May you take peace in her memory and knowing she is now pain free.

RIP Roxanne

[Catty1]

Play happy at the Bridge, sweet beloved Roxanne.

Jo, I so feel for you. So many of us have been there - this is a horrible shock. 23 years is long, but never long enough for we humans as we love our furbabies so so much.

Just do what you have to do...don't hurry to put her things away, or 'should' yourself into thinking you should feel better. Take your own time. May you and Mark find comfort in each other.