15 Years ago I lost Pouncer , My First Cat

[catmandu]

She had gotten ill with cardio myotherapy and her one lung had collapsed.
I was torn as to the course to take as I was unemployed and had recently been turned down for two minimum wage level jobs.
Pouncer would lie on the floor, not eating not wanting to be where it was soft, just lying gasping for life.
I am sorry as I took her to the shelter , not to the Vets who wanted 200 dollars to relieve her pain.
I am sorry to have done that as she died as stray , not as a Companion Cat.
I wished I had given her a dignified passing not have her in a cage and then thrown on a cart and cremated .
I am sorry Pouncer , I wish I had done the right thing but we get smart sometimes too late.
With all the Found Cats , she will always be the First Cat and I am sorry she never experienced the Found Cat Hotel when she was with us.
I hope you forgive me Pouncer when we meet again,
One Fine Day.

[DJFyrewolf36]

Aww you did what you could for her and you gave her what no one else would, LOVE! She knew you loved her and she knew you did the best thing you could.

[phesina]

Oh, Gary. I'm welling up again with LES. I am so sorry to read of this sad anniversary. As you said, sometimes we get smart too late. (I certainly have, all too many times.) You did the very best you could for Pouncer. She knows that, and she waits for you with all her love.

She didn't get to experience the Hotel, but she was the inspiration for it and the one who started you on your mission of caring for all the cats you can. She has watched every bit of all that has happened and is so proud to be the Founder!

Rest in peace, dear Pouncer, and God bless you Gary and all the cats and lovers of cats who have been part of your life.

[kb2yjx]

Gary!!!!!!!!!!!! No beating yourself up for something that happened such a long time ago, when you were having a rough time. You know that Pouncer was very much aware of what was happening, and she loved you because you tried to help her the best way you could!!! She is high up in the Traveling Angels Army. She has been to many places that she will take you when you both meet. One Fine Day.....Sleep softly, sweet Pouncer.....

[rg_girlca]

I agree with the others Gary. You did what you could with what you had.
At least Pouncer knew love because of you.
I'm sure, no, I know that she has forgiven you, now it's time to forgive yourself.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} dear friend.

[Medusa]

Gary, I think that what I love more than anything about cats and animals in general is that they're quick to forgive. Pouncer forgave you instantly. And, really, there was nothing to forgive anyhow. You did what you could w/what you had at that time and the fact that you're still sad about it 15 years later proves that you had her best interests at heart. Ease your mind, my friend, and know peace about this because Pouncer will be the first to greet you at the Bridge, as you say, "one fine day".