This is getting serious

[catnapper]

I know I haven't been around much lately. Here's why: Hubby's blood pressure issues have been getting very serious lately. I've been a mess with worry about him. He has constant tightness in his chest now and often stops to take deeps breaths and puts his hand on his chest. To say I'm freaked is an understatement.

He's gone for a battery of tests. He's even started seeing a therapist for dealing with stress and anxiety. He's on two blood pressure meds and his BP is scary-high despite the two medications.

Today he wore a heart monitor all day and goes back tomorrow to get it off to see what it might show. He kept a journal all day as to what he was doing, at what time, and how he felt at that time.

I think it finally hit him BIG TIME this afternoon with the heart monitor test. He's been a bit scared all along but I think today seriously put it all into perspective. Especially having to write everything down and how often he feels tightness or breathlessness.

I myself feel like a zombie. I'm exhausted but can't sleep. I feel emotionally and physically spent all the time. I worry about him and what I'd do if anything ever happened to him. I told him tonight that I spent a long time looking for him and I don't want to lose him just yet.... I might want to kill him at times but killing him should be MY job, not his own doing I love my big guy and I can't imagine my life without him. SIGH.

Anyone spare some of those famous PT prayers?

[Karen]

He'll be in our prayers, that this current difficulty be the wake-up call that he needs to make some changes to be around for a long time to come.

[moosmom]

Kim,

I know you tried to call me, but I was at work and couldn't answer. I got out late and didnt want to call you at 10:39 pm.

You've got thoughts and prayers coming from Connecticut.

(((((((HUGS)))))) and love from
Donna and crew

Pssssssssst get rid of the kids!!!

[Catty1]

Kim - PT Prayers are yours and his!

I am glad he is finally seeing a therapist, and keeping a journal (even for one day). He is being pro-active in solving this...! A good thing.

(I hope his daughter is not contributing to this...but if he has started therapy, maybe that will bode well for everyone. Especially if she starts therapy too!)

HUGS and more PT Prayers for you.

[jennielynn1970]

I'm so sorry to hear that this is happening again Kim.

Are Cam and his mom both back in the picture, or just Cam? Does she realize how much effect she has on her father's life? These kids really need a wake up call.

Big hugs adn prayers going out to you and your family.

[Catty1]

Jenn - I agree. But from what I remember, it's Dad's turn to give the wake-up call. I hope his therapy helps.

{{{{hugs}}}} and more prayers to Kim's home.

[catnapper]

Hubby had another meeting with the therapist this afternoon. The therapist had lots of good things to say about me and told hubby he's lucky to have me (got that right!)

He had another meeting with his family doctor today who asked him repeatedly if he's taking the BP meds, which hubby repeatedly assured them he was (he is). His BP was its highest ever this morning. Hubby said its because his principal called right before he left for the doctor's and grilled him on how long he'd be out. He simply needs to find another job. I don't care what he does, so long as it makes him happy.

[emily_the_spoiled]

Just a suggestion ... If there is a possibility that Ashley will be "leaving" the house, you should look into getting custody of Cam before then (if you are interested).

[Kirsten]

Oh Kim, I'm sorry to read that your hubby isn't doing well! And it's sounds like you're worrying yourself sick over this, too, but who could blame you?!

Positive thoughts and get well wishes for both of you!

(((HUGS)))
Kirsten

[Scooter's Mom]

How are you all doing?