I thought when you became an adult you weren't suppose to have these problems anymore.

My family has always been close (kinda hard not to be when you all live within 5 miles of one another) we have our fights but all is usually forgiven within a month or two. I think that's because there was always someone to bring us all together again. For years that person was Grandpa and after he died it was me.

There is a fight between my mother and my aunt that is currently on going since Easter of last year. It's a long story about the fight but I have long ago stopped trying to deal with their childishness (is that a word?) and now it's eating at me that I failed to stop the fight.

Dustin has gotten a job as a correctional officer at the prison in Jefferson City (4 hr drive away) and began looking for a house for us. He has offered to transfer to the prison down here so I could be closer to my family. He said, "that way your family is happy."
But I'm tired of trying to make them happy, I want to do something to make me happy. I think getting away from this fight would make me happy. I feel guilty though like I'm abandoning my family and now they are totally gonna fall apart. Should I be guilty for letting myself try and be happy for a little while, while my family isn't?