I have neglected to post about this for several reasons. One, I was not sure I could gather up all the emotions and have the post make since, two, I was just having a very hard time trying not to focus on this, and three, I couldn't let go.....I tried believe me, but I couldn't. I have finally excepted what has happened, as hard as that was to do, and overcome the emotion enough to post. I am thankful I have a young son, and other pets to take my mind off of her.
We lost Morgan. About a month ago. I didn't say anything because I couldn't. When I said I would post pics of her, I didn't because I couldn't take any. She passed away, peacefully in our arms at the hospital. I know I should have said something sooner, but I am one of those people who do not know how to react to death. I am unsure whether to feel sad, mad, I just feel like nothing. I can't cry no matter how hard I try or want to. I am just blank, like I have no emotion at all. I am in shock. Yesterday was the first day I actually cried over Morgan. I cried for my girl, who was only with us but a few months. She was taken away as quickly as she came.
So I am sorry that I pretended to keep her alive all this time. I shouldn't have done that, but it was the only way I could feel connected to her.I never got to take those fantanstic pictures of her with my new camera. She would have LOVED to have her face spred all over the internet lol. That was my girl, she was always craving attention.
We have found so many new trails this summer, and traveled them alone without her beside us, tail wagging and begging for a cookie. She loved to steal Dylans cookies, lol. She was obsessed with food, loved anything and everything!
She was feeling pretty awful, and when they opened her up there was nothing they could do. We drove to the hospital while she was still under anesthesia, held her head, and kissed her goodbye. We didn't want to wake her up, and felt that the best thing would be for her to go peacefully, while already asleep, not knowing what happened. I know she heard us though, because her ears perked up. I am hoping she crossed the bridge peacefully, without pain, feeling happy.
I just feel so bad that I didn't say anything sooner. But I just couldn't. It had beena long time since I had a dog of my own, and my heart went out to her. She was perfect in every way. Such a sweet, gentle, kind soul. She was meant for us, for our family. She came to us for a reason. Perhaps to help me along while I was here dealing with everything else in my life, Morgan took my mind off things. She got me outside, to walk and run and hike. To take Dylan to the park.
So with this post I am now saying goodbye to my girl. May you rest in peace Morgan, silly girl. You brought such good times to me, to our family. I will never forget you, ever. You will always have a place in my heart. I miss you girl and hope you wait for me.
Now that this is out, I also wanted to let you know about a possible new addition. I couldn't help it really. I need another pup, and this girl may just be it. I am hoping so very badly because the situation she is in is not a good one. We have new neighbors next door, they had two puppies. One a boy and one a girl, both from the same litter. I am assuming they are German Shep. mixes. They are pretty young, around a three months old?
I will continue in another post.....
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Dylan loves her, and Ewok actually tolerates her lol. The other kitties don't exactly know what to think of a small puppy, as they have only been around bigger dogs. They think she's a weird looking cat lol. 
But the second pic shows how she spent about a month of her life, until I started watching her while her owners were gone. 
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