Feeling a little down and really stupid..

[Alysser]

I try to keep these college rants down to a minimum, really I do, but I am just really angry (with myself) right now.

All my high school career a variety of people told me I couldn't achieve what I wanted in life, 'cause I was bad at math. I've always wanted to work with animals and be a science major. I changed my major from Bio to Science recently so I can transfer more easily to the school I want. Ultimately, I want to transfer to a four year school with a Wildlife conversation program and become a wildlife biologist. Anyway, so yeah, I've been told this a few times by some people who really cared about me (not my parents), and it just hurt, ya know? I wanted to prove them wrong.

So I finally got an amazing grade last semester in math (B+) and I was really happy. I am in a non-credit math course, which doesn't count toward my GPA, but I NEED to pass them to move on to the credit courses. Well, my semester started awhile ago, about a month or so ago, and I was doing well...I got an 81% on the first quiz which most of the class apparently failed, I got 100 on all the homeworks and passed all the labs. Well I took a quiz today, which I studied for 2 hours for last night, and I totally think I failed. It was so much harder then I had anticipated and I think I failed. I don't find out till Wednesday. It's only 10% of our grade (all the quizzes) and she drops two at the end of the semester. My mom said I am making a HUGE deal out of nothing, especially since I don't know my grade yet. She said you failed one, so it doesn't even count..don't worry about it.

On the way home, I was thinking about how stupid I am if I think I could actually do all this difficult math like stats and calculus if I can't even pass a stupid quiz in a non-credit course. I really don't want to change my major, I feel like I belong in this career. Maybe that sounds corny but I cannot imagine myself doing anything else. Traveling the country on temp positions studying animals just sounds like too much to pass up for me. But seriously this math is just so so so frustrating.

I think that annoys me the most is that I am SO good at every other subject. I get A's in literally everything, even biology, physics, etc. It just bothers me that math is always holding me back.

Sorry, I just really had to get this out..thanks for listening.

[Karen]

It's okay to vent. And hey, my sister is a math person. If you want, I could give you her email, and she could maybe explain stuff to you better if that might help! She thinks math is fun, but isn't obnoxious about it!

[Queen of Poop]

First of all, you're not stupid!!!!

Take Karen up on her offer of assistance, it might be just the thing you need.

It's just one quiz and you were doing fine before it.

Don't beat yourself up, know that you can/will do better next time.

I believe you can do it, if you believe it to you'll do so much better.

I'm not a math person either, in fact I quit math after grade 10, opting for accounting instead which was easier. Now I'm building spreadsheets for the entire company, because I can. I'm building spreadsheets for Engineers because they CAN'T. Have faith in yourself.

[Scooter's Mom]

I am not a math person either. My husband can do algebra calculations in his head, but I can't even do normal addition in my head! I have to have something to write on.
Math is not an easy task for many people, so please don't beat yourself up over this. Just remember that not everyone is good at every subject, and you are better at other things.

Oh, and if it makes you feel any better, I even screwed up on a tip receipt the other day! We stopped for a quick take-out dinner and I added the tip, I wrote in one amount but when I wrote the total, I actually added in a different amount! So, math sucks. LOL (I hate math, I truly do!)

I am like QoP though, and I am really good with accounting spreadsheets!

[Catty1]

Stop beating yerself up! So you had one difficult quiz. Look at all the OTHER tremendous marks you got!

Anybody can have an off-day - you're allowed. Look at the big picture - you are doing fantastically and heading to where you want to be and what you want to do!

[kaycountrygal]

First of all, I am sure you are not stupid. You just have trouble with math. Perhaps you could find a tutor that could help you.

Secondly, At least you know what you want to do with your life. IMO a lot of young people dont know what they want to do.

Thirdly, You just hang in there. If you dont try your very best, years from now you'll wish you had. Perhaps it will take you longer to achieve your goal but keep working toward your goal.

Good Luck!