In two days, I have to go to my annual heart check-up at Deborah Heart and Lung Center. I hate going! Just the feeling I get, I hate being in any type of hospital, they are so depressing when you have to see the patients. Here they only specialize in heart and lung problems but it's so sad seeing all the seniors who can't walk, or just had surgery. But the worst part is, I hate going to the pediatric ward. There are kids who are like 6 years old who can't even get out of bed.It's so sad to see. I really hate seeing it. Since I still qualify as I kid there I have to go to that ward to. I mean, I guess sometimes you really can't spare yourself from that type of suffering and sadness but sometimes I can't stand seeing it.
I had Open Heart Surgery when I was five years old. Now every year they have to check up on things and I have to get all these tests. It takes only an hour or hour and a half, but still. Plus, I get all nervous that they might find something wrong with me and I might need some type of surgery or procedure. I HATE hearing that type of news. I've only had 1 procedure that was related, but I don't want another one. And who knows if I need another major surgery?![]()
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I'm throwing myself a pity party..sorry. I just hate hospitals and all. I would never wish this on anyone else. Worst of all, I never bring it up unless the annual check-up is near because I hate people feeling sorry for me. My parents tell EVERYONE I/they know, and people are always on the phone talking to me about something I don't want to hear.![]()
Anyway, I guess I am really trying to ask for a couple of good thoughts that everything goes well? Thanks!
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