So worried/ frustrated!

[Toby's my baby]

Sorry I just need to vent and I thought this was a good place....

As most of you know, I'm going through the difficulties of getting ready to move. I'm very angry with my parents still about making me move, and I'm not ready to make such a big jump right now, especially when I don't want to. My mom is moving in a week and a half, and I won't be moving until August. It's going to be really hard to live here alone with my sister and my dad. Me and my dad don't really get along, and I can never talk to him about anything. It's so hard to imagine that in 3 months I'm going to have to say goodbye to all my friends, family, boyfriend, and my horse. I just realized how parting with my horse is going to be very difficult. I spend almost all my extra time with my horse, and I have had him since I was about 9. The first person called me today about buying him. I love him so much, but I need to move up and get a younger horse that I can do more with. Plus the cost of moving him across the country is outragous.

Also... I had some trouble with an ex boyfriend a couple months ago. He told me "If Josh ever breaks up with you, tell me because I'm interested" What the heck?!? I don't like him at all anymore, and I'd rather not have anything to do with him. He would come to my basketball games, and then hang around me after them, if my boyfriend wasn't around. He was imposible to get away from, and he would sit as close as he could. Last night, my boyfriend was in the CHURCH parking lot with some friends after church and Dylan (my ex) showed up. My boyfriend got really mad at him, and they got into an argument, and Dylan lied about what he had done to me, and hanging around me all the time. Josh punched him once, knocking him out. Dylan ended up going to the emergency room and he can't remember anything. Josh feels absolutly horrible and called me last night very worried and feeling sorry. Today the cops came to school and told Josh that he is getting Asault charges. I'm really worried about Josh. He's having a hard time with school, and a really hard time dealing with me having to move. His mom has noticed and even offered to make enough room in their new house so I could move in with them. Now he's having trouble dealing with what he did to Dylan. I told him he did it and now he has to deal with it, but it's so hard to see him like that.

I'm so frustrated and I feel like I have no control over anything right now. I try to talk to my parents about moving to try make things better and at least try to get me excited for SOMETHING, but I just can't do it. I start crying every time I talk about it, and my mom won't really listen to what I'm trying to say.

Sorry to vent..

[crow_noir]

*hugs*

I wish i had advice for you but i still don't. Your story is breaking my heart though. You've been in my prayers. I so wish you didn't have to move.

Yikes! and you have a psycho ex! Maybe it'll be safer for you to move. have you considered getting some sort of restraining order on him?

Sorry I just need to vent and I thought this was a good place....

As most of you know, I'm going through the difficulties of getting ready to move. I'm very angry with my parents still about making me move, and I'm not ready to make such a big jump right now, especially when I don't want to. My mom is moving in a week and a half, and I won't be moving until August. It's going to be really hard to live here alone with my sister and my dad. Me and my dad don't really get along, and I can never talk to him about anything. It's so hard to imagine that in 3 months I'm going to have to say goodbye to all my friends, family, boyfriend, and my horse. I just realized how parting with my horse is going to be very difficult. I spend almost all my extra time with my horse, and I have had him since I was about 9. The first person called me today about buying him. I love him so much, but I need to move up and get a younger horse that I can do more with. Plus the cost of moving him across the country is outragous.

Also... I had some trouble with an ex boyfriend a couple months ago. He told me "If Josh ever breaks up with you, tell me because I'm interested" What the heck?!? I don't like him at all anymore, and I'd rather not have anything to do with him. He would come to my basketball games, and then hang around me after them, if my boyfriend wasn't around. He was imposible to get away from, and he would sit as close as he could. Last night, my boyfriend was in the CHURCH parking lot with some friends after church and Dylan (my ex) showed up. My boyfriend got really mad at him, and they got into an argument, and Dylan lied about what he had done to me, and hanging around me all the time. Josh punched him once, knocking him out. Dylan ended up going to the emergency room and he can't remember anything. Josh feels absolutly horrible and called me last night very worried and feeling sorry. Today the cops came to school and told Josh that he is getting Asault charges. I'm really worried about Josh. He's having a hard time with school, and a really hard time dealing with me having to move. His mom has noticed and even offered to make enough room in their new house so I could move in with them. Now he's having trouble dealing with what he did to Dylan. I told him he did it and now he has to deal with it, but it's so hard to see him like that.

I'm so frustrated and I feel like I have no control over anything right now. I try to talk to my parents about moving to try make things better and at least try to get me excited for SOMETHING, but I just can't do it. I start crying every time I talk about it, and my mom won't really listen to what I'm trying to say.

Sorry to vent.

[crow_noir]

OMG i just looked at your photos. I love them, they are so wonderful and beautiful. Have you considered becoming a profession photographer?

[Toby's my baby]

*hugs*

I wish i had advice for you but i still don't. Your story is breaking my heart though. You've been in my prayers. I so wish you didn't have to move.

Yikes! and you have a psycho ex! Maybe it'll be safer for you to move. have you considered getting some sort of restraining order on him?

Aww thanks. Yeah he is pretty crazy. My best friend also dated him, and she said she has been getting calls from him saying that he still loves her and stuff. He is such a freak. I'm not going to get a restraining order because I haven't seen him at all lately, and he doesn't talk to me anymore. I know for sure he won't ever probably talk to me again after what Josh did to him.

Yeah, maybe you are right that a move might be good for a couple months. I'm going to be moving back here in a year so I don't see the point of me moving out there at all.

Thanks for the comment on my pictures! Yes I have considered being a photographer, but when I look at other peoples pictures mine don't seem that great anymore.

[petslover]

As the old saying goes, when it rains it pours. I really hope things start looking up for you. My thoughts are with you through this hard time.

[Karen]

I do think the move will be a good thing. No ex-boyfriend to bug you, new horizons, but with your roots still firmly in place back in Minnesota, getting to meet new people and experience new things - some people never budge from the town they grew up in. You, at least, will have seen more of the world than your own little corner, and have a greater perspective.

Just remember your sunblock every day - the Arizona sun is much stronger, and drying as well!

[buttercup132]

Aw sorry to here about all this.Why don't you stay with you bf?
If my parents said they were going to move far away and my bf's mom offered that I'd stay.

I can't belive you have to give up Austin too Dose your sister have to get rid of Cisco?

It also really sucks because ofyour age. When your little your going around finding and making your new friends but when you've grown up in a city and have had your friends for a really long time it's kinda of hard to make new ones, especially since didn't you already move schools?

At least your ex won't be bothering you anymore. Sorry to here about what Josh did. I think most guys would have done that or at least the ones I hang out with.

[Toby's my baby]

Thanks everyone. I just keep thinking in the back of my head that I will be back here before I know it..

Alicia: I haven't talked to my parents about living with Josh's family yet. I talked to them about moving in with my aunt, though I haven't talked to my aunt, and they didn't really like that idea. My boyfriends mom is going to talk to my parents next weekend when we all go over there for a bon fire. Hopefully that goes smoothly... but I'm not expecting ANYTHING.

Yes my sister has to sell Cisco too. I just got in from the family comming to look at Austin. They were here for THREE hours!! They are about 98% sure they are going to buy him but they wanted to talk about it for a little bit. They are really nice people and I think he will be good for them.

Yeah, I did move schools at the beginning of this year. I was being harrassed at my old school and was called names for no reason at all other than the people there were @$$ holes. I absolutly LOVE my new school. It is amazing and everyone is so nice. I thought it was hard to leave my few friends at my old school when I still get to see them often and we can still hang out, but now I have to move across the continent..

I think most of the guys around here would have did something to Dylan, and I'm afraid if Josh wouldn't have done it someone else would have. Hopefully Dylan has learned his lesson, it's just to bad that it had to happen the way it did.

[crow_noir]

Tell you what, besides people that ARE in this as a career, there are only two people I've known personally that I would consider have do professional photos for my family... and you are one of them. (OK, so i don't know you personally, but you get the idea.) You're even better than have of the businesses around here in my opinion.

(The other person is someone who I've known half my life. She ended up taking photography in college as a hobby course. She already took decent photos, but came out doing one heck of a great job.)

...Thanks for the comment on my pictures! Yes I have considered being a photographer, but when I look at other peoples pictures mine don't seem that great anymore.

[Toby's my baby]

Tell you what, besides people that ARE in this as a career, there are only two people I've known personally that I would consider have do professional photos for my family... and you are one of them. (OK, so i don't know you personally, but you get the idea.) You're even better than have of the businesses around here in my opinion.

(The other person is someone who I've known half my life. She ended up taking photography in college as a hobby course. She already took decent photos, but came out doing one heck of a great job.)

Aww, thanks!

[Daisy and Delilah]

I'm sorry to hear this Beth. It has to be really really really hard for you. You have until August before you have to go so maybe by that time, moving will seem better. Maybe you could move into your bf's house temporarily. Whatever happens, I hope it turns out well for you.

I know how hard it is when you want something and everyone else is calling the shots. {{{{{HUGS}}}}} I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.