I don't know what to do anymore, or who to talk to...
My mom and I fight a lot. We also get along good though...if we're not fighting, we're like best friends. She means a lot to me, but I just can't take this not getting along thing. She makes me feel like crap.
Last year we were driving to halifax and got into a serious car accident. It was raining harder than I've ever seen it rain before, plus the tires were 70% worn and needed to be replaced (I didn't know this till after) Anyway, I was driving and we hydroplaned. I was driving. I felt so horrible and guilty that I can remember thinking at the time I was going to go into the woods and wished I would die there. I STILL feel badly. I don't really feel it was my fault...I mean, these things happen...I'm a very careful driver...I even still see it in my head (the accident) when I'm driving on highways.
Anyway, suddenly this year, my moms insurance goes up $300 dollars. It didn't go up after the accident appearintly because we didn't hit anyway.
I don't drive her car a lot cause I don't live with her, but every now and then I want to do some place I can't walk to....like the farm I worked on. It's 1.5 hours away, so a 3 hour drive there and back. I usually drive my dads car, but I feel badly using it all the time...
I went to the farm last week with my dads car, and want to go this weekend to see the baby llama. Now, I don't go out that often, it's just because I want to see the baby. Anyway, so I asked my mom if I could borrow her car this weekend and she like flips out at me. She says well, you know I'm going to take you off my insurance because I can't afford an extra $300. *I* wasn't even driving but yet it still goes up. It wasn't *my* fault! YOU should pay the $300. (If she doesn't have that then I certainly don't...) She kept implying how it's my fault and everything. I would pay her the money but I just don't have it. I almost never drive her car. I only drove that day because it was a long drive and she got tired. Then she was like how dad's car isn't in good condition because of how I drive it...she didn't say it like that but that's what she ment. I've never even gotten a speeding ticket (knock on wood) let along ruined it. She said "oh well you can go fast over bumps in a big truck, but you can't in my car". Um, no, not really. I don't drive like that no matter what I'm driving.
She keeps implying that I drive poorly. My dad, whom I live with and use his car often has never once told me I can't drive good or that I break the truck. I've never been in any accident other than that ONE.
Oh yeah, and a while ago I borrowed her car while she was away, and a light came on and said "change oil" she flipped out at me for that yelling at me saying I broke it and that it was something I did to it. Guess what was wrong with it? NOTHING! The light just popped on?!
99% of the times I'm upset is after I've been talking to her. It makes me feel like I can't do anything right and that I ruin anything I do. I feel like I've ruined her life or something because she needs to pay an extra $300 a year. She keeps saying "Geez, I might as well just sell it!"
You know what? She has a 2005 grandam. Why would she buy such an expensive car when she can't afford it!!!
Sorry for venting. I don't mean to talk rudely of my mother. I love her dearly, but it's really hurting me...I try to talk to her, but she honestly doesn't listen to anything I say. Actually, that's another thing that hurts me. I can be talking to her and she'll just start talking to someone else like I wasn't even saying anything. And I KNOW she knew I was talking cause she does this ALL the time. And once when I was telling her how I felt, I needed to say something 5 times PLUS say "you don't listen to me" 5 times before she actually heard me.
i'm sorry this sounds so immature, but it's just how I type. I hold it all inside and sort of bursts out of me in one long confusing story.
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Originally Posted by Catty1
I talked to my dad and I feel a little better. he said it's ok for me to use his car this weekend to save me the trouble....
it's best you don't live with your mother, so glad you have your father.
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