I talk to my mom about once a week or so. So needless to say, this last Sunday I told her everything that has happened with Tubby. I had also emailed her the links to the threads I posted here, but I know she doesn't read the whole thread and probably hadn't seen all the updates I've posted.
So last night she calls. We decided to head up there for Thanksgiving day, so I thought she was calling about that. But before I could say anything, she starts saying "This is not a happy call" and I'm thinking "Oh God, what happened to my dad.." and then she goes on about how, if I wanted, when we come up Thursday, we could bring Tubby, all his stuff and all his meds, and we'd leave him there. She would take care of him for as long as necessary and do whatever I wanted to keep him alive (like the fluids and stuff) and when she felt it was time, she would have him PTS and spread his ashes in the woods behind their house.
What she was trying to do was spare me the agony of watching Tubby in his final days, and the pain of having to make that dreadful decision. She also knows how busy I am and was probably thinking it would be better for me - and less stressful - if I didn't have to deal with nursing him back to health.
I know it was hard for her to make this offer because we kinda don't talk about things like that as much as we should - you know, things that make us hurt - and I know she was only trying to ease her baby's (me) hurt, so I thought it was a wonderful offer.
I thanked her profusely and told her how much I appreciate the offer, and how I'll keep it in mind and everything, but....no thanks.Then I proceeded to tell her how he had finally eaten on his own and she said. "Oh that's great! Maybe I should have let you talk first."
I will definitely thank her again and give her a big hug when we're there Thursday. She really is the best mom anyone could have.
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