Why do I feel like this?

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

I feel so useless and lonely right now... you all know about my parents... Well we basically moved into her apartment with her so all of our crap is here... and my aunt and uncle are in the process of moving up here from Milwaukee, so they are staying in our old house.

To make a long story short, I am wedged in between my sister and my parents. My sister is mad that no one wants to help my aunt and uncle paint, etc. My dad says they CHOSE to paint, we didn't ask them to paint it. They wanted to do it themselves.

I came home from my sisters and they explained to me how they felt (my parents) and they are telling me Jenny (my sis) should just stay out of it.

I don't know what to do anymore. They don't want me to be on her side, they don't even want me IN it, but they sit and whine/yell at me about not being on her side.

I'm sitting her listening to this song and bawling my eyes out. From the emotions of posting Gavin's baby pictures and realizing how much he's grown, and being stuck between my FAMILY... I hate it all.

Here's the song:
One Step Away

I'm down and losing faith
I can't catch a break
That's where I am

And everyday is longer it seems
And I'm losing my dreams
Along the way

The world can be so mean to me...

All I want
So much more
Like a place on the dance floor
I'm only one step away

And I'm falling apart
As I walk through the dark
I'm only one step away

I know I'm not blind
But I can't see a future
Unless I change my mind
Unless I decide

That all this comes right down to me...

And tomorrow's new day
And I'm fighting my way back again
As soon as I let me I'll prove this is all in my head

'cause I want
So much more
like a place on the dance floor
I'm only one step away
And I'm falling apart
As I walk through the dark
I'm only one step away



I hate this... so much.

[Jods]

Hi,
I don't know your story, but I do offer tons of hugs. I am so sorry your having such a hard time at the moment, I am as well with a couple things If you want you can e-mail or PM me if you ever need someone to talk to... I know you don't know me but, I'm a good listener.
Jodie