Caramel

[PayItForward]

*cries*

He won't be alright.

He tested positive for feline AIDS. The vets said coupled with the intensive mouth problems and possiblity of cancer.

He is suffering at the moment and even with treatment will continue to suffer for the rest of his life.

We can't let this happen, we have a vet appointment at 2pm for him to be PTS.

I can't believe how upset I am, I only knew him for a couple of weeks.

I am so angry at the neighbours who fed him for months/years but never bothered to find out why he had trouble eating bisuits and if he had a home.

I am angry as there is nothing I can do.

But he won't be in pain anymore, it's not much but it is all we can do for him.

RIP Caramel. Be happy and free of pain at rainbow bridge. Hopefully we'll get to spend more time with you on the other side.

[ChrisH]

Oh, no, poor, poor sweetie I am so sorry....

I can't believe how upset I am, I only knew him for a couple of weeks.

yes, I am in tears here too and I only know him through you.

I am angry as there is nothing I can do. But he won't be in pain anymore, it's not much but it is all we can do for him.

Bless you, that is everything. Even in such a short time, you have given him much love and care, and if you hadn`t taken him in who know how long he would have been out there getting worse and worse with much pain and suffering.

Rest in Peace beautiful Caramel and Godspeed to the Bridge. Hopefully we will all get to meet you there one day.

Hugs and much love
Chris

[Rocky'smomma]

This brought tears to my eyes...You are beautiful caramel...

[moosmom]

PayItForward,

I'm so sorry to hear about Caramel! He's a beautiful cat. It's very difficult to make the "ultimate" gut wrenching decision. Find comfort in knowing that Caramel will not be hurting anymore. Before you took him in, he was living on the street, having to fend for himself. If he was still out on the street, he would've died alone.

But he didn't die alone, as you were with him every step of the way and gave him the love he craved.

Rest in Peace little Caramel. Find peace and harmony at the Rainbow Bridge.

Hugs from Moosmom and the clan.

[kimlovescats]

I was very concerned when you spoke of his panting! I knew that wasn't a good sign, as I stated in your other thread.
You are wonderful for taking him in, showing him love, and giving him a peaceful end to his suffering.

God bless you!

[smokey the elder]

Poor Caramel! Full-blown feline AIDS is pretty rare. It's sad that this cat was not taken care of from an early age so the FIV could be managed.

Godspeed to the Bridge, sweet orange boy.

[bluekat]

OMG, I had no idea, he looks so healthy. I am in tears too. Poor Caramel, he must've been suffering all this time. But I'm sure he's happy that you took him in, and to the vet. He must be very happy that you made his last days probably his best days in his life.
RIP Caramel.........we all love you!

[Tina]

I'm so very sorry to hear about Caramel He looked like such a healthy cat. May he rest in peace

[Denyce]

I am so incredibly sorry. I can relate to the pain you are feeling right now. This winter we spent months feeding and trying to gain the trust of this little red tabby. It was such a cold and bitter and snowy winter here. It took a couple of months of her eating and running before she would slow down long enough for us to get a look at her. But once she did she immediately changed. She went from running like the devil was after her to running towards me when she heard me call for her. She absolutely panicked the first time I put her in our pole barn and shut her in. As soon as the door opened she ran. I didn't see her again for 3 days. But when she came back she was ready to sleep in the pole barn. This was in early March. I had first started feeding her in December. I made a comfortable bed for her on an old chair with comforters and a velux blanket. She seemed to happy to finally be warm. I called our local no-kill operation and they said they would put her up on the list and I might be able to get her into the shelter within the next week. I was so ecstatic.

I was calling her Miss Kitty by this time. She was so sweet and gentle. She was small...only about 7 pounds and so incredibly soft. She was a red tabby without any white on her at all. Her claws were like daggers but she never once scratched me..not even by accident. She loved sitting on my shoulder snuggling under my chin and purring. She would get so into it she would start to drool. Just a couple of days before PAWS would take her I went in to feed her in the evening and she had mucous pouring from her rectum. I took her with me in the morning and dropped her off at the vets. The very first thing the vet said to me when she called is what an incredibly sweet cat she was...that everyone was just falling in love with her. They were estimating her age to be about 5 years old since she was getting the freckles that red tabbies get at they age. So someone must have spayed her when she was young. Her nipples were the small underdeveloped ones of a cat that has never had kittens. Since she was outside for months in all sorts of horrible weather with wind chills below zero I am guessing she was a stray. The vet said she had a bad case of colitis. They were going to start her on Flagel. I asked them if they would go ahead and test her since she was there. The test came back positive for Feline Leukemia. It was so positive the result came back faster than the control.

I had to put her to sleep. I held here while she went over the bridge and my husband and I just cried. In fact i am crying now. She had found a place in my heart that will always exist for her. I am also so angry at the person that abandoned her. But at least she was loved at the end. They held her body at the vets for us until we were able to dig a grave for her. We buried her just last weekend. She is resting in our pet cemetary with my beloved Smokey and Killer Sue. I don't know which kitty is coming back from the RB to snuggle with me at night. I sort of hope it is Miss Kitty and she is enjoying being loved again.

So trust me when I say I understand the despair, frustration, anger and incredible sadness that you are feeling right now. But also know that you have given Caramel the best gift and love that he could have gotten. Life was unfair to him in so many ways but the fates brought him to you so that he didn't have to die alone and in pain. And he was loved at the end.

Denyce

[marysmerrycats]

I'm so sorry to read this... I didn' realize you had a sick cat..I'm very sorry for your loss!
now Caramel is happy and pain free. you did all you could do!

[RedHedd]

OMG I didn't realize from the other thread that he was the one who looked a lot like my dear old Goldie, who I had to PTS after doing battle with liver cancer. Perhaps Caramel and Goldie are cat dancing across the RB. I'm crying as I type this, Goldie's ashes are next to me and her pictures are on my desk.

[Prairie Purrs]

I'm so sorry about Caramel. He was fortunate to have found you, to help him go peacefully and not have to suffer more. He went to the RB knowing he was loved.

[jenluckenbach]

I am sitting here attempting to type through tears. I am so sorry that you were forced into such a decision. But if it were not for people like you who DO care about more than just "your own" he would have suffered even longer. And who knows how long or how badly. I know that I am a better person for just knowing about sweet Caramel and I know that you are too.

[PayItForward]

Thankyou all for your words/thoughts.

It's good to know that I have friends to lean on here
(esp to do with my cats, not everyone understands).

The warden lady spoke to me very kindly, when we went to collect Sooty (Treacle). She said that cats seem to have a nack of locating the people they need, when they need them.

I nearly broke down in tears then & there.

I now know Caramel had been fed in the past by neighbours etc. So at that time, he visited people who would feed him.

I like to think, he knew that we would stop his pain and that is why he came to us.

[Steffi N]

Caramel and Miss Kitty, your lives ended too early. But you found love and comfort to ease your passing. Thank you Pays It Forward, Pays For It and Denyce.