Zoe has cancer

[Catty1]

I didn't hear from my vet today. Things can happen - I believe I'll hear from them in the morning.

I crushed more prednisone and put it in the liquefied cat food. I gave her over 3 syringes of the stuff - over 30 ml.

A few minutes ago I gave her the Whiskas milk with gabapentin, again over 30 ml. I add water to both formulas.

She is out and about more today.

[Randi]

I'm glad to hear you managed to give her some liquid, that is bound to help her feel at least a little better. I hope the vet can give her the depo-medrol injection, also.

Best wishes!

[Catty1]

One of the vets at the clinic says that in Zoe's case the Depo-Medrol (injectable prednisone) would not be her go-to.

I'll carry on with the syringe feeding for now.

(Grrrr....no resentment here! )

[cats4ever]

Did they say why?

[Catty1]

No.

I was hoping to keep feeding my poor little girl until I could order the naturopathic remedy that might help her. I couldn't log into the site as I didn't have my password. As directed, I phoned Distributor Services to redo my password, and they are closed until Monday due to a convention.

Maybe the fates are telling me to let go.

Tonight I had one last batch of raw beef strips that I cut up; Zoe and Oscar are nuts about them. Zoe was even in the kitchen with Oscar while I was cutting them.

I put a batch in each of their dishes and Zoe tucked right into hers!

And a couple of minutes later...the beef pieces were on the floor as she hadn't been able to chew them properly and swallow them. Just heartbreaking.

ETA: I just went on Facebook to track down the messages I had exchanged with a local rep for Transfer Factor in October of last year. I read in our previous conversation that accounts are suspended after 6 months of inactivity. I am in month seven.

I left him a message but am not hopeful. The signs are all pointing to Zoe going to the Bridge soon.

I am scared. It has been over 20 years since I have taken a cat to be sent to the Bridge. And I am so so sad.

[phesina]

Oh, Candace. Hugs to you and gentle pets to Zoe. And love and prayers and warm energies to you both and the other kitties.

[cats4ever]

Candace, I am so heartbroken. There are no words to describe the pain you are going through.
Love and purrs to both of you.

[Catty1]

I had already decided that today I was going to walk into my vet's before work and say it was time for Zoe to go to the Bridge.

I fed the other two, got her out from under the bed. I could see she was drooling. There was blood in it.

Gently wiped her face down with a tissue, gave her her meds in water. When I let her jump down from my lap, she went behind an opposite chair and her back legs slipped from under her, though she recovered.

She's not the Zoe we knew.

No meeping and meowpring at Cole in the bathroom in the morning, no begging for attention and affection. No sleeping on the bed after turning around and getting all the pats and head rubs she wanted. No tummy rubs.

No head butts with Oscar and grooming his face.

There's been the occasional cheek rub against a lower cupboard or wall when her meds have kicked in.

It's time.

I work today but am going in early, and my vet is open late.

I'm so sorry Baby Girl. I am so sorry this happened. I love you, Zoe.