my, I'm such a cry WRECK. I'm not going to visit my poor baby until tomorrow evening and he can't be with me for two-three days.. my little guy is going in for amputation this afternoon. I already miss him.. what's the good part in 'goodbye'???
morning update: his extremefriendly specialist and I talked (with deaf vet too), we decided it's best for him.  the crack is not even, and if we saw the keenbone off for pins, it would make his leg shorter than the other three,  about 4-6 months strict recovery IN cage, away from his attempting playful furriends. (with amputation, only a few weeks),  in years, because of the location of the crack (lesser trochanter - just below the neckball) possiblity of pins getting out of its place, going up after lots of runnings then poking and bother him. specialist also said what she has seen, is most difficultest case - she CAN try, "fix & see" (intramedullary operation) but not promising. so we felt amputating was best for him without any more trouble/pains.
miles lost rapidly in weight is what concerns surgeon the most - even though I had miles eaten 2x than usual past this week, he lost approx. two pounds and is very bony - so she's going to do some bloodwork & ultrasound (for kidneys, liver, active organs) to ensure there is nothing else wrong before amputation today.
I'm at starbucks, anxiously to hear back from specialist, hoping nothing else serious is wrong with him.. tonight, while I can't visit him, at home without my little brave fella there will be so depressing and empty.
my dear miles, hope you will go through everything smoothly today, and days going by fast then you come home!! I hope you will forgive me when you get back but know you'll always be my little hopper!