I feel terrible! Hospital maybe??New UPDATE!

Sorry because I don't reply as much as I used to do :( . I make sure you all get pics from my cats, but that's about it, as I cannot spend much time on my pc.
What is wrong with me??
Some of you must remember my continuous back problems over the last years. I had a major operation in 2003, when I got an artificial disc implanted.
But that is just the beginning of he troubles... . :(
Within 1 year I got 2 blood-clots in my legs: I am forced to take bloodthinners for the rest of my life... .
The worst is this: end of 2004, I lost feeling in my legs, could hardly walk or stand. I was in hospital during 2 weeks then. Part of my lower legs was paralysed and numb. After the removal of bone-marrow from my spine, and several brainscans, a conclusion was made: it was almost 60% sure that I have MS (multiple sclerosis). Not 100% sure, so I am NOT allowed to take medicine to stop MS yet.
Since November this year all my joints are hurting terible, and it is very painful to get up from sitting, and put weight on my legs. I got cortizone shots in January. For nearly 3 weeks, the pain was much less, and I believed I was finally getting better.

BUT............ it just doesn't work for me. All the joints and muscles are extremely painful again. I can hide it very well to other people, so lots of friends don't know till I tell them... :rolleyes: . I really am at my wits end now. What will happen with me? Do I have MS or not? If not, what is wrong then?? I am not in doubt that it IS MS, as my mom has it in the highest degree. She is paralysed 100% (she is 83)... .

I phoned my neurologist today and told her all about what is going on now. She sais she wants to see me asap, so that will be coming Tuesday afternoon. She also gave me a scaring message: "Be sure to bring your PJ's with you: I think it is possible that you have to stay in hospital for tests.." :eek:
Tests???? OMG, that means another withdrawel of bone marrow from my spine. It is VERY painful, and you have to lay down (head lower than feet) for at least 24 hours.. . If not, your brain might get hurt and give unbearable headaches! Lots of unpleasant tests will follow...
I am so scared and upset right now. I am sorry for venting here, and for this long post. But I really need my friends now! I don't know how to handle this situation any longer. I try to be jolly, but I just cannot do this any longer :(
I am so nervouss but also very depressed; I am just sitting or lying there all day, worrying and worrying. The result is that I sleep badly too now... :(

I need help from my friends here on PT. I am desperate....

ps; Thanks God for my furry nurses. I don't know what I would do without them!! They fell something is wrong, and they come and lay on me on the couch.

I had a friend get diagnosed with MS recently, I thought it wasn't that hard to determine? MS as you know is degenerative over the years, you could have these types of symptoms for years from what I understand. I hope its not that....I know the older I get things just hurt more, could it be arthritis:?

I'm so sorry you have been going thru all this and more to come..
I hate to think of suffering like that..im crying for you cause my heart hurts for you so much..I will keep you in my prayers.My daughter had a deseased heart..no help but a heart transplant, which she wouldnt be able to get in time to save her..they doctors allsaid she would not live 2 years , we agreed in prayer that God would give her a new heart, now her heart was totally destroyed except for a tiny part that ws barely keeping her alive..and we prayerd and trusted God..and before the 2 years was up, they doctors were so amazed they couldnt belive her heart is complety new, like new tissuse and evey thing..We stand on our belive that God answers prayers because we have seen him do it so much..put your trust in God and let the doctors help with what they can, but belive with all your heart that whatsoeevey you ask in the name of Jeus he will give you..God bless you so very much..

Youi will be in our prayers, certainly. I do know that cortisone shots "wear off" after a period of time. Bring the silliest, goofiest slippers you won with you, in case you do have to stay in the hospital - that'll at least give you - and those around you - something to smile at.

I hope that, whatever the diagnosis, they figure something out that will help you and relieve some of the pain.

Then we need to somehow get at least Inka certified as a "Therapy Cat" so Bernard can bring her in to visit, otherwise, maybe Indra could get a very large purse and smuggle a kitty in! (Girls arouse less suspicion with a large purse than men do!)

i really dont know what to say, hope its notingh serious and that they can give you something to feel better, you will be in my thoughts.........hugs :)

I'm sorry you are having such physical difficulties. It's very hard to be debilitated like that. I sympathize with you greatly. I hope they are able to figure out what is wrong and get you some help. Try not to despair. You will be in our thoughts and prayers that they can figure out what it wrong and help you feel better.

I'm sorry you are going through this! I also hope they figure out what is going on with you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. (((Hugs)))

Oh Lut, I just don't know what to say except that I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all go away.

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Don't ever be sorry. Lut, you are so loved and we all care about you. You are in my daily prayers, hon.

{{{hugs}}} and kisses to the furry nurses. They certainly know how to do their job.
xoxo

I am so very sorry to hear all that you have been going through. The waiting and not knowing I am sure is very difficult and the fear of having to go through more tests, especially the bone marrow withdrawal, that does sound scary. Please know that you will be in my thoughts and lots and lots of good thoughts and prayers are on their way to you.

After our talk this morning I felt so terrible for you. I can't imagine the constant pain you are living with every day and been have the last few years. Makes me think maybe my hurts aren't so bad after all.
I hope that if you have to stay in the hospital that it's not for long. If you sleep bad at home it's got to be much worse being there.

Lut, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers hoping the pain of the tests are bearable for you.
Tell Indra to email with updates any time she feels.

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Anna

So sorry you're not feeling well, Lut... please keep us updated and I hope you get some healing powers soon!

Lut, my heart is breaking for you. Oh how hard it is to endure what you're going through. I will pray for you really hard and I just hope that you're going to get better very soon :D

Oh Lut (((hugs))))

I wish I could be there to help you through the scary parts. Thank goodness you do have the girls to help you through everything (and a caring hooman family too)

I'll be thinking about you and praying you finally get a diagnosis!

Lut, I can only imagine what you must be going through. My heart goes out to you.

My prayers and positive thoughts are on the way.

Please try to keep the faith and keep up a positive attitude that the doctors will be able to help you with your pain.

((((((HUGS))))))

Lut,

I've only been reading your posts for a few weeks, but those have been so engaging that I feel I know you a little already and that has made reading your news very upsetting.

It's horrible to move from our own comfortable environment into that of a hospital (I feel that way even though I used to be a nurse) and suddenly feel powerless, constantly facing the unkown and the painful known. When I was facing major surgery, I bought myself a very expensive and glamorous ivory silk dressing gown to take to the hospital. Very impractical, I know, and I couldn't really afford it. But it made me feel as though I was stamping my personality onto an environment in which I would become just another patient, no matter how good the hospital. Having been through this kind of thing before, I'm sure you will remember to take things from home with you to remind you that you are going home when they've finished the tests. Perhaps you can take one of the cats' small toys with you to hold while they do the tests?

Please ask your daughter to keep us updated. We will want news and become anxious if we don't hear anything. Perhaps posting here will take her mind off what will be a distressing time for her also. I'm really glad you have close family to support you and to hold onto.

Hang tough! But don't hold back on asking for medication to help you through everything. My best wishes for as speedy a visit to the hospital as possible and the most hopeful results from your test.

Thank you, dear friends!! I knew it, this is the best place to ask for good thoughts :) It is 10 pm here now.Normally I don't go to bed this early, but I am so tired.... guess I have been worrying contantly :(
Nighty night dear friends!http://users.pandora.be/bernardgabri...cat_in_bed.gif

My thoughts and best wishes are with you Lut!

Sweet Lut, my dear friend, I will pray for you every moment. If I could do more I would certainly do so. PLEASE try to continue to keep your spirits up. May any tests you need be painless and conclusive so treatment can begin.

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

All the best for you Lut, I hope they can find something that helps you.

(((((Hugs))))) You will be in my prayers.

oh my dear lut... not you. :( loss at words! - I only can think you've been going through h*ll. big, big gentle hearty bearhug to you from me, I know it wouldn't wand your pains away but do know you're definitely in my thoughts and absolutely in prayers. please, please to have someone update for you if you can't be around.

hugging the way you always hug!
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:) hang in there dear!

:( Oh Lut I am sorry of your medical problems & you feeling uukkyy.. You know Pet Talk family is with & behind you all the way.. I know Bernard & your furrpurr babies will take good care of you.. Me & the girls sends lots of whisker kisses, head bumps, Prayers & (((( Hugs )))).. Keep us posted..

Lut, I am so sorry to hear how awful things have been for you. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Make sure your furry-nurses take real good care of you. ((((gentle hugs)))) --- Meg

I hope everything goes well for you Lut, I pray that there will be something soon to heal you and take and away your pain. sending many prayers your way!
Get well soon... :)

Lut I don't know what to say. You are definitely in my thoughts, everyday.

Whatever it is I hope you will know it soon and that they will find the best treatment for you.

You have a fantastic family to take good care of you, and four great nurses. PT family is with you too. Keep us posted. You know that you can e-mail or phone me.

(((((HUGS)))))

Lut, I am so sorry to hear that you have been suffering like this. :(
I will certainly keep you in my daily prayers.I hope the Doctors can
quickly find any problems & you get you feeling better soon.

Dear Lut

Special thoughts heading your way - sorry I missed you on msn today. Thinking of you sweetie xx

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this scary time, Lut. May God guide the doctors as they perform the tests.

{{hugs}}

Lut I remember your surgery but thought you were all better since then. I am so sorry to read all of this. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are such a sweet person. It just does not seem fair that you are going through all of this. ((((hugs))))

The Pet Angels Have Heard Your Call,and You Will Have Visiting Angels To Help You With Your Pain 24/7 As Long As You Need Them.
Mister Scrappy And Fluffy Always Made Me Feel Better,and They Should Be By Your Side Now.
And Prayers Are Coming From The Found Cat Hotel And I,that The Doctors Will Be Able To Relieve Your Pain.

Lut, I'm so sorry you are going through this. :( I hope the doctors can help you to feel better soon. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Lut, I'm so sorry you are going through this!! :( I've had a lot of long term illness with members of my family so I know a little of what you are going through.

The best I can offer is a very warm ((( hug ))) and many positive healing vibes being sent your way.

O Lut!! I am so sorry to hear about this!!!Rest assured that many prayers will be coming your way from me and all of the Clan!! Ralph and Raven are the retired therapy cats and if we could we would be on a plane and at your bedside!!! Take Care!!!! Sandra & the Clan

Hi God ~

Need sum Help down here onna Ole Durt Ball - for Miz Lut.

Please Help her ta *perk up* a bit an feel a lil stronger.

We'd also like iffin You could go over da Big Book wiffa White Coats - see iffin
You can help 'em spot da rite page ta read to get her feelin better.

Keep us posted; an let us knowe iffin there's anythin we can do ...
course we'll keep Paryin every day.

Thanks God!

/s/ the Prayer Pups anna Purrayer Kat

((((LUT))))))

Keeping you in my heart, thoughts and prayers, sweetie.

I just sent you a PM...let me know if I can help.

Hugs,
Kelly :)

Lut - I was glad to see your snoring kitty avatar...sounds like you were set for a good night's sleep! I wish you a deep peaceful sleep and sweet dreams and furry nurses!

HUGS

Candace

I'm so sorry you haven't been feeling so hot for a while now. I know a doctor/hospital visit doesn't sound great, and I sincerely hope they find a solution with as little pain as possible. Hugs to you, and you know us on PT will be thinking of you !!

Dear sweet Lut ... I am so very sad to hear what pain you are in, and the added worry of a diagnosis! :( Please don't ever be afraid to share what you are feeling here with your PT friends .... you are a very much loved friend to us here!!! I pray that the doctors will be able to finally give you a definitive diagnosis, so that they can start you on whatever therapy or treatments you need to feel better and be at your best again! Please try to keep the Faith that God is in control, and will pull you through these difficult times!

Love and many HUGS and prayers!
Kim ;)

Very well said Kim.

Lut, we will all be here, virtually holding your hand to help you get through this.

((((((HUGS))))))

Lut, I'm so sorry to hear that you're still in so much pain and that you may also need to stay in hospital for a while. :( My SIL was diagnosed with MS a few years ago and she has her good days and bad days. I hope that the doctors will be able to help you and determine what is causing you so much pain. Lots of prayers and positive thoughts are being sent your way. Please let me know if I can do anything to help you. Take care. ((((HUGS))))