I fear I may be losing my Puddy.
I posted yesterday that Puddy had to go back on the SQ fluids every other day again because she backslid. And yesterday she vomited, only twice but one of the times was quite forceful. Her appetite has been great up until yesterday. She hasn't eaten a thing, this morning either. I brought her in bed w/me and she didn't want to be touched AT ALL. So I let her alone and just once in a while patted her for comfort. No noggin noogies; she pulled away when I tried. She's going in to see Dr. Lee today for the BUN series and creatinine levels. She's purring, I'll give 'er that. But it's different this time somehow. She didn't want to go downstairs w/me when I got up this morning, so I left her in bed and looked back at her before I left the room. She lifted her head and looked at me and we held each other's gaze. And I got this eerie feeling that it was a goodbye look. Maybe I'm being melodramatic, I don't know. I just checked on her a minute ago and she was just lying in bed but she purred when I touched her.
Please, friends, my Puddy needs your prayers now more than ever. I'm really, really scared.
Blessings,
Mary
Just got back from Dr. Lee's
As soon as I saw the expression on his face, I knew it wasn't good. He said "She really looks bad. She looks so scrawny. She's lost over a lb. again." Pud only weighed a little over 6 lbs. to start with, so a lb. is a big deal. He did the tests and said he or someone there would call me this evening when the results are back. He gave me something for her nausea and another appetite stimulant and something to sprinkle on her food to help flush the kidneys. And she has to have the SQ fluids every day now. He said that she may just be having a bad spell. But if her creatinine is way up there, that there isn't much he can do for her other than what we've been doing. And that means more long hospital stays, more IV's, more pain and being caged w/out being home w/me. Unacceptable. So, as soon as I got home, I gave her the meds and her fluids and she went to the enclosed patio and is lying in front of the heater. All I can do now is wait. Agony.
Please keep up the prayers and I'll post as soon as I know something.
Blessings,
Mary
I had to take Puddy back to the hospital
Dr. Lee called and said "Well, it isn't as bad as I thought it might be but it isn't good either." Her creatinine was 6.something. He thought it might go as high as 9 and he said that, if it did go that high, that would be unacceptable. She is not anemic but her white blood cell count is at 37,000, up from 17,000. Not good. He said that I could either start her on antibiotics at home and give her SQ fluids twice a day now. Or I could take her back in and they'd start the IV antibiotics and double the fluids. I asked if she stood as good a chance by staying at home, even though it would take the antibiotics longer to start working since I'd be administering them orally. He said "Do you want the honest truth?" I said "Yes, of course!" He said "No, her chances would not be good. She's going down very quickly. She's really sick and she feels it." Sigh.
So....I took her back in and my heart was so heavy that I could barely breathe. She just curled up in a ball in the carrier and her breathing was so shallow that I had to check a couple of times to make sure she was still alive. She put up a fuss, though, when I took her out of the carrier and handed her over to Dr. Lee. He said that, if he can get her white cell count down, then he'll feel optimistic. If he can't.... I don't even want to finish the sentence. I'm just sick about this. I hated leaving her. Hated it. She'll be alone and she hates being fussed with anyhow. And she smelled bad from the renal failure plus she has a severe kidney infection, he said.
I hope I did the right thing. If she passes over while she's alone, I won't be able to bear it. But when he said that she had a fighting chance by taking her back in, I felt that I should give her that chance.
Blessings,
Mary
