4 years ago

4 years ago today -
2 days after the world was reeling from the Sept 11 attacks - I woke up to my own nightmare.

My beloved Shaianne - the dog I loved with my heart and soul - that I had for less then 2 short years was called upon to aid the souls that perished in the attacks. I am not belittling the tragedy at all. Thinking that she was needed up there more then I needed her on earth was what got me thru the beginning of the loss.
The blackness of her not being here was almost more then I could stand.
She was the first dog I called my own. She had been in a few homes before I got her. She was found running loose after the local Coon dog trials in my home county. She was beautiful. She was elegant. She was mine. I didn't think I could ever love a dog so much.
When she left me I was convinced that it was b/c I loved her to much - that God was punishing me for loving her too much. I just wanted her back.
It has taken me some time to admit that Keegan is now my soul dog. I felt guilty that that spot belonged only to Shaianne. But there was room in my heart for a lifetime of dogs... Shaianne helped me realize that.
It was Shaianne that opened my heart to Kylie and a love of cats. Funny but true.
I didn't have a digital camera when I had her. And I don't have very many pics of her online either. But I do have 2 pics to share.


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Play hard at the bridge my fancy faced little girl. There are lots of people there to play with you. Including Grandma and Grandpa Tippy.
Mommy loves you and is so proud of you for doing what you did.

Shaianne looks like such a beautiful and elegant dog. Two years is such a short time but long enough to cause such heart break. I wish her peace and happiness at the rainbow bridge.

{{{Hugs for you, Staci}}}

Thank you for sharing a couple of her pictures. I never got to meet Shaianne and I am happy to see her pics. Such a pretty girl with a sweet face. I know she is up there with your Grandma and Grandpa and running those beautiful fields like crazy.

Rest In Peace, Sweet Shaianne.

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{{{HUGS}}} Staci! ;)

/s/ Phred

I remember Shianne. She was a beautiful, loving girl. Just wish i could have met her in person. I guess I will, one day. :)

Staci, I can't tell you how I still reel from your post the day you lost her. :( I know her memory lives on, though, through you and Keegan.

Kylie and Kloe are happy to be part of your family now, too, I'm sure!!! :)

Love,
Logan

Staci, thank you for sharing Shaianne with us. I didn't have the pleasure of knowing her, but she certainly was a beautiful, elegant, and obvious loved dog. You can tell by the gentle, cuddly look on her face that she knew what it was to love and be loved. You made the last two years of her life very happy. {{{Hugs}}} to you, Staci, I (and most of us here) understand how hard it is to loose a special pet, especially one that has taught us so much about being a furparent. I am sure she is enjoying running free at the bridge right now, and is one of the first to greet our other furbabies.

Thanks everyone. She is the reason why I totally melt when I see greyhounds. :)
She was a special girl and I so wish PT could have Met her.

Shianne was a beautiful girl! She looked so elegant. I am so sorry for your loss. :( (((hugs)))

Staci,
I, too, still remember the day that you lost her. My heart broke right along with yours. She was so beautiful. Big hugs to you today.

Oh, Staci! I also remember that awful, awful day.:( :( :(
I am so so sorry. Give Keegs a kiss and a doggie cookie for me, thanks.
Love, Sarah and sadie may

I wish I could have known her Staci, but I do get to know her through your words and memories. In her pics she makes me think so much of Tasha. I can also relate to how you felt with Shaianne being your soul dog, and feeling like you'd be betraying her in a way by letting Keegan get so close. I felt the same way after Willie passed, and I found myself drawing ever more closer to Tash (Tommy was still so new to the household at that time). Like you, I realize now that they can all be my soulmates, my heart dogs, in each their own way.

Thank you so much for sharing your memories so that she may live on in all our hearts too. What a very special angel you have watching over you :). {{hugs}}

Awww, Stace, I'm so sorry. :(

From what you've told me about her, she sounded like an amazing spirit...I think our world lost something very special four years ago. :(

I'm so sorry she's gone from earth, but I know she's your very special angel, and keeps your grandma and grandpa company.

Hugs,
Kelly

Staci,
I was thinking about this thread since you posted it and I'm sorry I didn't get the chance to post in it on the day you created it.

Shianne was a special baby.. I remember her and will continue to do so.

Shaianne was a very special dog and obviously very special to you. I wasn't an active member of Pet Talk when she left for the RB, but I know it was a great loss for everyone. You have a wonderful guardian angel now. {{{Hugs}}}

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Originally posted by shais_mom
When she left me I was convinced that it was b/c I loved her to much - that God was punishing me for loving her too much. I just wanted her back.
It has taken me some time to admit that Keegan is now my soul dog. I felt guilty that that spot belonged only to Shaianne. But there was room in my heart for a lifetime of dogs... Shaianne helped me realize that.

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Staci,

I remember your Shaianne very well. It was a sad time when she left you especially after the 9-11 attacks and the emotional termoil the country was feeling in general.

Isn't it sad how our emotions can make us think we must be punished for having pleasure and enjoyment? :( In reality God wants the opposite for us. He loves us so much that he gives us the gifts that give us pleasure and joy.

My wish for you....May the memories of your sweet Shaianne intensify with the years and may she greet you sweetly when the time comes for you to be reunited with her.

Candy

Thank you again for the wonderful comments and thoughts about my darling girl.
hugs to all

Staci, I am so rry I did not reply sooner. I'm sorry I never got to meet your beautiful Shaianne, but her memory lives on in you and I am glad you are ablet o shre those with us.

:( (((( hugs ))))
She was very beautiful- She sounds like one special pup! It's wonderful that you got to have her in your life, and the love you shared will stay with you forever.

What a touching story.
Im so sorry for your loss. :(
RIP Shaianne

Staci,

I'm sorry I'm just now seeing this thread:o

Your loosing Shainne was before I came along so I never really got to hear about your sweet loving girl. I'm sure she meant the world to you, and I'm so glad in your time of need that your Keegan came along to help you mend your broken heart.

Many {{{HUGS}}} to you.
Love ya
Anna

Thank you everyone - your continued thoughts mean a lot to me.

Looking on some 'good times'.

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