My little Ivy Boy died in my arms today

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Today I had planned on visiting Ivy before I had to go to work and take his best friend Scooter with me to see him, hopefullly to cheer him up and make him want to eat. I got up real real early and was feeding the others when I got a phone call and the number was the vet;s. My heart stopped beating as I answered it thinking I was going to hear that Ivy had died. She said that Ivy had gotten much weaker and that he was anemic now and that he probably wouldn't last the day. So I hurried up and finished feeding and got dressed without taking a shower and drove to go get Scooter. Ivy and Scooter live with a friend because they are FIV+. I was crying hsyterically as I drove. I stopped at the drug store hoping they would have drayola molding clay so i could get imprints of his paw. They didn't and I was scared to go and where else because I was afriad i would be too late. So I picked Svooter up and went to the vet. She immediately put me in a room and brought ivy out. I got out his favorite blanker of my friend's and the two little pillows that we always laid our heads on side by side on my friend's bed. When they brought him out I put him on it with his head on his pillow. He was so weak he couldn't even lift his head or hardly move. he did flick the very tip of his tail as i held him and talked ot him. he was barely purring but was too weak even to do his kneading. I got Scooter out and he laid beside Ivy and cleaned him and kissed him and rubber his head against him. I laid my head on the pillow next to him and we laid there all three of us like we ususally do when we take naps together. We spent time visiting and I told Ivy how much I loved him and how much Scooter loved him and we were going to miss him and we didn't want him to leave us. I could tell he was getting worse as the visit went on. Ivy was "my little Ivy boy" he was one of a kind and he was my heart. he was so special to me. he could always lie down beside me and no matter what was wrong he would make me feel better. No other one could do that. I don't know what I will do now that he is gone. As our visit went on I could tell he didn't have much time. I told the vet I wanted a few more minutes with him before she put him to sleep. I told Ivy that it was ok if he left. I dind't want him to died but I didn't want my Ivy to stay because he flet he couldn't leave me. She said she would be back in a few minutes. but before she could come back Ivy died in my arms. I am lost, heart broken and I don't know how to go on without him. I have cried all day at work. before they took him Scooter kissed him and rubbed his head and said goodbye and I kissed him and hugged him and told him I loved him. I took Scooter home and as soon as i let him out the carrier he started looking evrywhere for Ivy and crying. It broke my heart all over again. Those two were so close. I have to go back to get my paw impressions before they cremate him. it is going to be soooo hard.
Melissa

Oh Melissa, my tears are flowing right along with yours my dear. I am so, so sorry that your little Ivy boy lost his battle. My heart goes out to you and Scooter. :(

I know it is difficult to say goodbye to a pet you held so dear.
I pray and hope that you find comfort and peace in the fond memories you made together.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} to you my dear and headbumpies to Scooter.

Rest in Peace dear Ivy. You were so loved and will never be forgotten.

You got my LES going. Im typing this with Erp the Cat in my lap because of your post.

I'm so very sorry, Melissa.:(

{{{{hugs}}}}

I am so sad for both you and Scooter. Ivy left for the Bridge surrounded by love, and he'll be waiting there for both of you.

Rest gently, sweet Ivy. Please watch over Melissa and your best buddy Scooter.

I'm so sorry, I thought Ivy was going to make it. Prayers for your family to heal.

Godspeed, dear Ivy, to the bridge - play well, send grace to your fur and human family.:love:

Melissa, if you can, take comfort in the fact that Ivy died in your arms, loved and stroked and comforted by you. My RB Puddy died the same way and I was so glad that I didn't have to help her to the Bridge. Your story was so touching and everyone who reads it will feel your sorrow, I'm sure. Please know that prayers are going up right now for you to soon know peace. Ivy is taking that much needed rest now. Anemia takes a lot out of them. I know because my Puddy had it, too. She's there to greet Ivy and help him until he gets the rest he needs. He misses you and Scooter, too, but he knows that you'll be together again one day. RIP sweet Ivy and peace to your human and Scooter. :love:

I feel your pain. I love nothing in this world more than my son and my cats. My oldest kitty is 11 years old now and I know the end will be within the next few years. My prayers for healing go to your broken heart. Ivy had no doubt he was loved, believe that. There is no higher honor a human can get!

I am so sorry - godspeed little Ivy Boy!

Dearest Melissa i was crying too when i read your post, i am so very sorry you have to go through this heartache, you and scooter,i hope you will find some comfort here with us all and your heart will heal in time, for now think of the beautiful memories you shared with this special furbaby, my heart goes out to you, take care and giant HUGS for you and scooter.

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I am in tears after reading this. There is a huge lump in my throat. This was possibly the sweetest thing I've ever heard. How lucky Ivy was that his favorite human and favorite kitty were right there with him when he began his journey to the bridge?

Ivy and AbiGail can explore and learn their surroundings together at the bridge.

RIP Ivy Boy

Major LES syndrom over here!! I can feel your and Scooter's pain! :(

It's a wonderful thing that Ivy passed when you told him it was okay for him to go. If he could, he would have stayed with you and his friend Scooter for many more years, I'm sure!

What a special kitty he was!

R.I.P. little Ivy! I'm sure he smiling down from the RB now and is watching over his loved ones.

Kirsten

I am so sorry :( RIP little Ivy

I am glad to hear that your last moments with precious Ivy were as you wanted, and your eyes were the last eyes he gazed into. I know that meant a lot to Ivy to have his mama and Scooter there to comfort him and reassure him.

It is so hard to lose a 'heart cat', but you must keep going, because he's not lost forever. He's waiting. Just for you.

There will be a Grand Reunion. One Fine Day.

I am so sorry for your loss. :( {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

RIP Ivy.

Melissa, I am so very sorry to read about Ivy. I know that you loved him deeply and will miss him. He is now at the RB, healthy and happy, waiting for the day when you will be together again. :(

Melissa, I am so very sorry that Ivy has crossed to the RB and I can feel your pain. :( It is the hardest thing to say goodbye to a long loved kitty, but you were there to comfort him, together with Scooter. :) I'm sure Ivy appreciated it very much.

I know Ivy will always be in your heart and never forgotten. :love:

Go and give Scooter some kisses, he will miss Ivy too. I like that you're going to have his pawprint made.

Rest in Peace, dear Ivy!

:( Melissa I am just in tears right now reading about poor wittle Ivy.. I am so sorry for your loss.. Wittle Ivy may you be with the Angles now going thru the Golden Gates at RB.. Play Hard at the Bridge with the other PT Angles.. RIP Ivy

Tears are flowing as I write ... Melissa, I am so, so, sorry that the time had come when your special little Ivy boy had to leave this world and you. My heart goes out to you sweetheart. {{hugs}}

Rest in peace Ivy boy, you will ever be in your meowmies heart.

Oh, Melissa, I am so sorry. RIP, beautiful Ivy, you were much loved. Hugs to you and pets to Scooter.

Rest in peace, sweet boy.

I'm so saddened to learn that you lost Ivy. LES after reading of this.


RIP dear Ivy - your Meowmie and Scooter will miss you and you will be in their hearts furever. :love:

Melissa,

I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious Ivy. I'm glad you were there for him when he made his final voyage to the Bridge.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers, honey.

(((((HUGS))))))

Donna

I'm so sorry about Ivy. He was much beloved to you and Scooter.

Oh, Melissa, I am so very sorry that your beautiful and beloved Ivy is gone, and sorry for the heartache that you and Scooter are going through after having said goodbye to Ivy so lovingly. My very deepest sympathy to you all, and may God be with you.

Rest in peace, dearest sweet treasure Ivy, and play happily by the Bridge.

LES here too.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} and ~~~~~~PURRS~~~~~~ to you,

Pat and cats

P.S., I just lit a candle for Ivy and you and Scooter: http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/...ng&cid=8374993

I am so sorry for your loss of this sweet baby. Prayers for all of you during this time.

I'm sorry for your loss!! RIP Ivy!!

Thank you all for your words of comfort. I am writing this at work just before I get off because I know this is going to be hard for me and I didn't want to lose it at work when I was jsut starting my shift. Yesterday afternoon I went to Michael's Crafts and bought the molding clay that I get to makw paw rints when one of my babies dies. I also went to the dollar store to get little plastic storage containers to put the impressions in. I was very nervous driving to the vet because I knew how hard it would be to see my little Ivy boy again. One of the guys that works there saw me and started to joke around with me. We always tease each other when I am there. he asked what was wrong when I didn't tease back. I said Ivy died and he said he was sorry. i told him that I was here to get paw prints. He immediately got me a room and had someone bring Ivy out to me. The girl that brought Ivy out was a girl that has worked there a very long time and that I knew and had gone through other losses with me. Ivy was her favorite of mine. She use to give him baths when he went in for them. she always said what a good boy he was. Everyone there loved Ivy because he was such a sweetheart and gave you kisses on the lips. They always said how much Ivy loved me. As soon as I saw him again I broke down all over again. I was so glad it was Amanda that brought him to me. I cried and cried , she gave me a hug and we talked about Ivy. Ivy would have been 14 in October. She told me that Ivy had lived a very long life for a FIV+ cat that most the ones that come in there to the vet don't last more than 5 or 6 years and then it hits them and they get sick. She said I loved Ivy so much and took such good care of him that he was lucky enough to live as long as he did. I said that it still wasn't enough time with him. She asked if I needed any help with making the impressions. or if I needed anything. I told her no. She left me alone with him and I just cried and cried as I made all my little paw prints. I had gotten two different colors white and black. Ivy was a black cat but he was even special in that his undercoat was white. That is why I chose those two colors. I had never seen a cat with a coat like his. Each and every impression came out pefect, and even the ink ones I did the day before were perfect. Usually they don't come out as good as they did. Ivy was truly a perfect cat, a dream come true and so he couldn't make anything other than perfect paw prints for me. Amanda said it was Ivy's last gift to me. I shaped some of them in a heart shape and one in a cat head shape. When I was finished I cradled him in my arms and held him and told him how much I loved him and how much I missed him. I wanted so badly for him to just wake up and everything be ok. Why couldn't God do this one thing for me. I still can't believe Ivy is gone. When a lady came to take him i didn't want to give him to her. I asked for Amanda. She came in and I told Amanda that I didn't want to let him go. I wanted him back. I held him in my arms. i just couldn't give my little Ivy boy up. I just couldn't let go of him. I wanted to keep him forever. Why did he have to leave me? Amanda talked to me some more. She told me that she was the supervisor in the back that night and she would personally take care of him and his cremation. I didn't want anyone else to do it. I couldn't give him back. I told Amanda when I got his ashes this would be the very first time That Ivy would get to come home and live with me. he always had to live with my friend and I had wished so much that he could have been with me the 13 years. I jsut am so lost. I want him back so much. I loved that little Ivy boy moer than anything.
Melissa

We are so sorry for your loss. It is never easy too loss any, but there are the very special ones that do cling to our harts a little bit tighter.

Sending heartfelt condolences.
It is so sad that Ivy had to go. However I think he has been very lucky to have found you and to leave the world in your arms and close to his best friend Scooter. May he play happily at Rainbow Bridge.

I was so sorry to read about your very special boy. Sleep softly, sweet Ivy....

Its always sad when we lose one of our Fur Friends , as you miss that unconditional love that they bring us , and thier unswerving loyalty as well.
Little Ivy misses you and Scooter, but Ivys sprit is eternal and Ivy will drop by once in a while to let you know what things are in The Animal Angel Army.
And Ivy wants you and Scooter to know that theres a place where you are really going to enjoy when you are all together again in love.
One Fine Day.

RIP Ivy. Play hard at the bridge :love:

The tears were certainly flowing as I read your post. Losing a pet is so much harder than some people might think. My heart goes out to you and your family. I know how hard it is to lose a loved one as I recently lost my precious baby boy. The only thing I can do is assure you that the pain WILL go away eventually. Just make sure you hang on to the memories of all the wonderful times you had together.

Rest in Peace, Ivy. You will always be deeply loved and missed, I'm certain of that.

Melissa, Major LES here.:( I'm so sorry to hear about Ivy's passing.:( You had a very special bond with him and I know that you'll be reunited again. RIP sweet boy.:(

Know that thoughts and prayers are with you. My heart goes out to you.

I just recently lost 2 of my babies and I found a little poam that gave me comfort .I would like to share it with you ..............................If tear's could build a stairway,and memories a lane,I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.:love:Your sweet Ivy is waiting for you at rain bow bridge ,He is a happy young fun filled kitty again . God bless and know he is in good hands

I'm so sorry that Ivy is gone, Doo. You helped him have a long life, though, and you have to remember all those good times.
Logan