Originally Posted by Glacier
Thanks, Kay.
Lute my situation is completely different from this one. I certainly wasn't sitting on the computer an hour after Delta ran away. I turned it on long enough to print 200 missing posters and that was it. I never even thought about posting anywhere until he was gone for almost three days. He disappeared on February 20, I posted in the wee hours of February 23. I was doing everything I could to find my dog. When I admitted he might not be coming back, I posted here. I've posted maybe three other threads since then, mostly about Raven's medical problems. I don't feel like posting or replying much at all.
Delta has been gone a long time, 22 days to be exact. The odds of him coming home now are extremely slim. I will forever have to live with the fact that because I didn't triple check that stupid gate, an innocent creature who I adore, paid with his life. I will forever be haunted by the fact that the last hours, maybe days, maybe even weeks of his life were spent alone, afraid, hungry, cold and possibly in pain. In all likelihood he died a horrific death in the jaws of predator. I haven't slept without medication since the day Delta disappeared. The image of him running into a wolf makes sleep impossible. I will never forgive myself for not doing more to socialize him. If I had, maybe he would have been brave enough to find his way home or let someone else catch and bring him home. The only comfort I can find is that I did everything I possibly could to bring him home. I continue to look, search and advertise for him, despite the long odds of any success. I don't even get to mourn him properly because there is no closure in missing. Delta was only 4. I will spend the next 10 years, potentially his life span, looking at every black and white husky cross I see, just in case.
Dont' compare my Delta to this.
I do hope Ali is safe at home by now. I wouldn't wish this hell on my worst enemy.
