I went through somewhat of the same thing My mother was an alcholic when i was a teenager she had somewhat of reasoning to why she was like that,My dad left her with 5 kids to raise on her own,she struggled and did the best she could then when i was 18 i lost my 25 year old brother he got himself into drugs and all the rest that follows and he was found in an alley was stabbed to death,I thought for sure my mother was done for,her and my deceased brother had not talked for 2 months then she gets the call he is gone.Could you imagine? i don't know what i would do if i lost any of my children,Anyways she continued drinking until i was around 24 and she quit completly no meetings nothing she seen she had to get through her life and she wanted more than having a Title as an Alcholic
I wish you all the best while you are working through this!