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Aly, you can't do this to yourself, it's only making it 100x more difficult for you. You are doing the right thing... go read your first post in this thread. That is no way for a dog to go on. It is Peka's time... as hard as that may be, it is her time. She owes a lot to you and in her own special way, loves you and thanks you for it. But now it's time for her to go on to a place where she's happy and without any pain...
Let her go, Aly...
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Aly sending so many {{{{hugs}}}} your way.
I didn't make it to the vet room when we had Caramel put to sleep. Steve took him on his own, I just held Milly, George close to me and wept.
It is sad to know that Peka's time has come to the end but you are doing the right thing.
You are giving the last loving gift any owner can give a beloved pet....dignified death.
Peka knows you love her (excuse me being blunt) but it will make no difference to her if you are there in the room with her or not. She will drift painlessly to sleep and onto the Bridge.
Do not feel guilty, feel proud of the difference you made to her life.
Bless you for your kind heart & loving nature.
If not for you, Peka would have had a very different life.
Aly, I am so sorry. Please don't torture yourself like this. Know that you are doing the right thing, the best thing for Peka.
I went through the same thing with my beloved RB Pepper - a black toy poodle. He was so sick and I kept him on painkillers for longer than I should have (mainly to wait till my mother got back from a trip to Germany so she could say goodbye). Anyway, I remember waiting that day as the hours went by till the appointment. I almost went insane and made myself miserable. Don't do it to yourself.
I'm sending you all the hugs and support I can. You are a wonderful person and this is just another way you can help Peka.
Aly, if I could magically fly down to you and be there I would. I guess 5pm your time is 3pm my time, so I will say a silent prayer for you and Peka at that time.
Hugs to you.
luv
Gosh - of course you're not horrible! You did a wonderful and selfless thing by taking her in and providing her with a loving home during her final days. If you can't be there when she goes to sleep, then that's completely understandable.
How are you doing now?
I'm not doing too well. I don't handle death well. Adnd I've never had to make this decision and its killing me. I keep going back and forth.
One of my friends who I always confide in when Peka has problems called me and siad it is harder on me than it is on her and that sometimes death is the best thing. i think her words are sort of sinking in and i know what i have to do.
i'm glad i have my foster puppies to come home to. they help me. even thoguh i'm bringing peka's life to an end, the puppies are 2 lives that i helped bring into this world since they were a day old.
skylar is also glued to my side. my own dogs are staying with my parents right now so i can concentrate on peka without stressing my dogs out. they're both too sensitive and they hate it when i'm upset.
slick - your prayer will mean the world to me . i need all the strength and prayers i can get. peka is the strong one . she's such a fighter. i think she will be happy to be at lpeace. i hope :(
You and Peka are both in my prayers. Tonight, Samantha and I will say one together.Quote:
Originally posted by aly
i need all the strength and prayers i can get. peka is the strong one . she's such a fighter. i think she will be happy to be at lpeace. i hope :(
And you're right - Peka will be so happy once she's at peace... you've got all the PTers with pets who have passed sending messages to them to help Peka out and I know they will. I'll even let Rags know (died in 1993). I'm not good with death either and I know I'll be a total basketcase when Samantha's time comes, but just know that all the PTers here are supporting you and you have lots of love and kindness surrounding you. God bless you for what you did, Aly. You truly are very special.
AHHH! It is torture....I went through this recently myself... hardest thing i have EVER EVER EVER x10000000 done in my life. I really didnt think I would live through it, but here I am today, to say that you will. She will live on in your memory, accomplishing what all dogs, I believe, are put here to do...and thats to capture the heart of one special person...and in HER life, that one person was you. Feel honored that your path's crossed and you were privlaged with her prescence for the time you were.
***Hugs*** to you... it WILL be okay.
Email me if you like... im at work right now, but check email regularly. [email protected].
Im really trying not to break down here at work.
Believe me, believe all of us that have been through it, we KNOW.
Oh, Aly, I so feel for you, I know how heartbreakingly hard it is. Take courage and let Peka go dear lady, and know that all of us are sending many prayers and much love for you and Peka on this sad day.
Hugs
Chris
The waiting is torture. I remember setting the time when making the appointment. I remember how hard it was leading up to that time. I remember staring at the clock and thinking, only so many hours left. I also remember feeling a little bit of relief when it was done. I had some closure and could begin to grieve.
My heart goes out to you. I will pray for your strength during this difficult time. And remember, we're all here for you.
Aly, does Peka have a favorite food or a favorite activity? In these last few hours, maybe you could let her relish in her favorites. I think (for Sara at least) skritches, walks, tennis balls, and food are equated to love. Maybe let her gorge herself in the usual "limited" foods, ie ham, turkey, whatever her treats are. Pet her beyond belief and maybe take her for a walk (if she's up to it).I'm sure you're already doing some of these, but if not, just a suggestion.
{{love & prayers for you both}}
I've just seen this thread & I can't help but cry:(
I don't blame you for your decision. You've been
a wonderful friend to her for the last year of her
life. I can't imagine that she could have been
happier with anyone else.
I will be thinking of you and Peka as she journies
to the RB.
{{{{{HUGS}}}} To you Aly
Aly, If you need me call me. I mean it. I understand how you're feeling.
I hope it's ok with you, I asked my Dad to meet Peka there and show her the ropes. He loved dogs and will warmly welcome her and keep her with him until the day you're tired and ready to go home, too. :)
I know the time is near...just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and Peka.