I am so sorry that I did not see this thread until now. I can't even begin to understand what you are going through right now, but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
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I am so sorry that I did not see this thread until now. I can't even begin to understand what you are going through right now, but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Just wanted to know that so many of us think of you every day and are sending you the best wishes. You are still in shock and will be for a while.
Give yourself time. Don't worry about the tears, they will come when they need to and at unexpected times. Know that you and your children are loved and cared for and good things will once again come your way.
You will laugh again, hope again, trust again, dream again.
This bad time will seem endless but it will pass and the love you shared with your husband will always remain the pain will fade slowly the love never.
http://ofsubstance.gov/blogs/pushing.../01/51633.aspx
itīs good to hear good things about him.. as he was anything but good...
Iīve received many emails from people around the globe that knew him... good to know he was appreciated as a person and as an honorable worker..
my love for him will never end.. and the love for our children will keep me going.. and the amazing support, kind words and prayers from all of you really have help me stay together.. thank you :)
What a nice article. You'll have to print that out for a keepsake for your children.
He was also a very brave man. He knew what the drug cartel members could do - but he went ahead and did the right thing.
You and your children can be very proud.:love:
A true hero. He made this world a better place.
......always thinking of you and your family.....
Sending you some healing prayers.:love:
Very high praise in that article. You can be very proud of what he accomplished - sounds like he was a real innovator, starting treatment programs for drug users' rehabilitation - very wise. He worked towards improving conditions and making his world a better place, that's a noble goal.
You are still in my thoughts. I think about you often..
Isabel,
I'm late in seeing this as I don't browse the forums as often as I used to. I am so very shocked and saddened, I just don't have any adequate words to express to you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. You must feel trapped in a nightmare. You have always been such a source of kindness and compassion for others on PT. It seems unthinkable such a tragedy could strike your family. He sounds like a remarkable man and I know he's proud of you and your boy, watching over you. It is obvious you shared, and still share, a very special bond with him, and nothing can ever take that away. My thoughts are with you ((hugs)).
he was indeed a very hard working man.. and always looked forward to leave a "seed" in his work.. and get things better.. he wanted to be part of the change..
and I think he did plenty of that.. thatīs why he escalated positions so fast... he had way many stuff to look forward too and doors just seemed to open to him.. no wonder about that.. with all he had accomplished... he was a great man
he many too often did jobs for his superiors to take credit from.. he was the one they asked "how do I solve this" "how can i fix this", etc.. he also made some law proposals that without questioning got through.. too bad he was never credited for them.. but he didnīt care.. he knew and I knew.. and it made us very proud..
he did so many for so many people.. and I think he never got back what he gave.. he so much deserved more..
boy, how do I miss him :( .... Iīve been a lil better.... still havenīt cried a lot.. but my heart still aches... itīs kind of weird as I realize I havenīt really accepted heīs gone... I still wanna see him walking back in.. like if he was on vacation or something.. thatīs how I feel...
I cannot thank you enough for your support through this tough times.. itīs really nice to come here where one feels like family... thank you so much ((hugs))
this are some of our last pics together..
http://i9.photobucket.com/albums/a95...0/IMG_0876.jpg
http://i9.photobucket.com/albums/a95...0/IMG_0840.jpg
Fun pictures, and ones to cherish! Hang in there, ISabel, we're all thinking of you!
Beautiful pics of you together, Isabel - looks like a fun day to remember.
Is your son getting excited about becoming a big brother? How long till your little girl arrives?
:love: Great Pics of the Three of You.. Also Great Write Up on your Husband.. He was a great man.. Your also a great woman & great children.. Hang in there Isabel.. Sending Lots More Huggss & Prayers..
Those pictures are so precious...............I am at a loss for words
Isabel just remember that your husband really did make a difference in this world, those pictures really brought tears to my eyes, you are such a beautiful couple and your son is so handsome,I can only imagine how you must be feeling, and when the time is right the tears will flow.
I may be on the other side of the world, but i think about you daily, and hope that as each day passes, you find the courage to get through each day, take good care of yourself,sending you a ton of love and hugs.:love::love::love::love:
Dear Isabel and family, I just wanted to say I am thinking and praying for you again today.
Isabel, I just wanted to let you know that I am still thinking about you and praying for you every day. Those pictures brought tears to my eyes. What a special day to remember.
he is now.. he really wasnīt when we found out it was a girl.. but now he canīt wait to see her :)... she should be here around nov 20-22..Quote:
Originally Posted by cyber-sibes
thank you for all your prayers.. they are much appreciated and needed((hugs to all))
those pics do bring great fun memories.. those were our last vacations this past july.. I was kind of smiling, laughing and crying as I browsed them and remembered all that had happened back then.. we all enjoyed them so much.. we did had a great family time.. just the four of us.. :) just wish we could have more of that :(
I'm so sorry I didn't have chance to respond to this before. I first read about this via facebook and came here to the shock of this thread.
My heart goes out to you, Isabel. :( :( You are coping so very well, and your PT family is always here as a shoulder to cry on. I fear my condolences are so insignificant at the scale of this tragic loss of someone so special to you, but I offer them whole-heartedly.
I can't do anything but I am often thinking about you.
Just look after yourself Isabel, that is so important now.
As always, prayers are sent daily your way from downunder ;)
Such wonderful pictures and memories. *hugs* You are still in my thoughts and prayers Isabel.
I wanna thank Anna_66... thank you for the lovely card :) thank you so much..
also I got a lil wall hanging "poem" from a relative.. posted it on the blog..
today I did have a nice cry... reading both of these made me "let it out" some.. thanks..
I'm still thinking of you and the prayers continue to be prayed. You have shown extraordinary strength, courage, and dignity through this unspeakable ordeal.
If I can make a suggestion here for your children. After my husband died I held back several personal things of his and put them in a box for our son. Mike takes a lot of comfort in that box and it gives him a sense of connection with his father. Maybe this could do the same for your children.
Always thinking of you, Isabel. You are always in my prayers.
Thinking of you and your family again today, dear Isabel, and prayers said.
Those pictures are really special. I hope you are still coping with everything, I'm still thinking about you and sending good thoughts everyday.
Prayers and hugs and sweet thoughts to you and your children every day, Isabel.
You are so very welcome. I'm glad to have helped even just a bit.Quote:
Originally Posted by Husky_mom
(((HUGS)))
Isabel,
Sending much love and prayers your way. Have you picked a name for your daughter?
thanks to Pembroke_corgi... we got a lovely package with baby stuff.. will post pics once I take/upload some.. thank you so much also for the card.. ((hugs))...
Iīve been ok... having ups and downs.. especially while in the shower.. not sure why.. but Iīve managed to get by one day at a time... still have a lot on my plate to sort out.. but things are coming along... itīs really tough having to deal with this and still have to do tons of paperwork and whatnot.. what a hassle...
I did got the PT book in with the rest of my stuff.. they shipped it over.. I still have a few things to add.. sorry if itīs taking me long.. and it will take an extra 2 weeks to get to whomever goes next (still need the address of whoīs next too)..
in regards of my babyīs name.. I think Iīve settled for one name.. I even dreamed about it.. actually dreamed of hubby telling me it was ok... but not sure if it was my subconscious or what..
I wouldīve settled for Jordan Ariel.. but he didnīt liked much the Jordan part and i think it wouldnīt be fair to make my will now that heīs gone... so I was debating between Ariel Elizabeth and Ariel Reneé... and was thinking which ones of the list i made wouldīve he liked the most...then I had this dream.. and now Iīm 98% sure it will be Ariel Samantha... he really liked the name Samantha but we never really agreed on that one.. and being this way.. our baby will have a name we both agreed on and one he really liked... I do like the name Samantha but i didnīt wanted to have our baby named after someone we knew before.. but since the only one we "knew" we never even met and will never will made me go for it a bit stronger... the 2% remaining is because _Iīm not sure which should go first.. although I donīt want the names to end/start with the same letter as it would be if Samantha went first..
Samantha Ariel is a pretty name and Ariel Rene`e is LOOOVELY! :love::love::love: I hope everything goes perfectly fine.
Ariel Samantha is pretty, and I am glad you did get the book amidst all you things! I'll prompt Richard to PM you the address of "who's next" in case he doesn't see this!
I think Iīm having some sort of postpartum depression.. only this one is prepartum.. or something like that...
Iīm excited about our baby.. but I just donīt feel "as" excited... whenever I see something cute.. or even think about her.. I think about what the hubs might think and cry...and obviously get sad...
I miss his hand rubbing my belly.. and Iīm starting to hate people rubbing it.. itīs got to the point it makes me feel uncomfortable...
I also hate when my mom rubs my hand or wants to hug me.. (I know she means good, and while Iīve never been too keen or tolerant to touching, lately itīs started to irritate me even more)...
Iīve lost interest in certain things.. like "why should i bother doing this or that... hubby is no longer here" (gross example.. shaving my legs.. and some other meaningless stuff)..
the kids have been a huge motivator.. but itīs hard not having him around..
and I really thank you all for still being here and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers...believe me youīve helped me so much already..
Isabel, love, maybe you should find a professional counselor to talk to, someone not related, to help you through this. Hopefully someone you could see while your son is at school, even a clergy person might be helpful, just someone to talk about everything. Your situation is just about as stressful as could be, so getting some help is nothing to be ashamed of.
I'm so sorry! I haven't been here in a while and am just seeing this. I can't imagine your pain. But you also have a blessing, as well. I agree with Karen. Don't be afraid/ashamed to get some help. You've been through a lot. Would you please PM me with your address? I'd love to make you a card. I'm at a loss as to what else to say because words can only help so much. Just know we're here for you.
:love: I so aggree with Karen.. Honey please do talk to your preist or a professional counselor.. I so wish I could just hugg you & sit with you to listen too.. If I could I would be there in a minute.. Yes can you send PM me your current address so I can send you something.. Also give me your phone # & I can call only if you wish.. Sending Lots more Huggss & Prayers Isabel.. Now just take it all slow & easy..
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Originally Posted by Karen
Isabel, I wish I could just reach through the monitor and across space and give you a heart - felt hug! OH, no wait, you aren't really enjoying being touched and hugged just now, oops, sorry!
I suspect that everything you are feeling is quite appropriate and normal just now. You are in the midst of a hug emotional turmoil, a roller coaster of feelings. And I agree with the others, you may want to consider talking with someone. Having a new baby on thee way, which both of you were so excited about, can only be entwined with the grief. I continue to keep you in my prayers.