My accomplishments today:
Bought a floor lamp and put it together all by myself. It has glass shelves and its pretty cool.
Went to a local mall and met my friend from Medicine Hat for tea.
A good day for me.
How was your day Rose?
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My accomplishments today:
Bought a floor lamp and put it together all by myself. It has glass shelves and its pretty cool.
Went to a local mall and met my friend from Medicine Hat for tea.
A good day for me.
How was your day Rose?
My dear neighbor was showing me how to maintain the swimming pool. I was scrubbing the sides, cleaning the filter, adding chlorine, etc. All things my 'husband' has left me holding the bag with.Quote:
Originally Posted by Queen of Poop
Then we cut back the neighbors shrubs and I made a dinner for us.
It felt good to be with another person, conversation, chit chat.
One less day of being completely alone, is how I have to look at it.
Tomorrow we are going to move furniture around, and I am going to switch bedrooms.
Nice to hear you had a good teatime, Gayle.
I had two cuppas with my British neighbor fellow today.
I have been following this thread and want to ask Rose and QoP a question.
This question was posed to me once-I got the point quickly.
It didn't eliminate the sting of a person downgrading the relationship.
Matter of fact, it made me laugh and I've 'carried' the advice/lesson in my heart since then.
Ready?
Were you born alone?
It's not meant as an insult......My mom told me that years ago when I was all bent out of shoot over a woman.
Yep, I was born alone.
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Both of you are going to be measured by what happens in the next few months. You have opened up to the PTers here and you may have made a mistake.:eek::D
We EXPECT the both you to get thru this and prove to us and yourselves that you will survive.
Life effing sucks today.
I am betting it may suck tomorrow.
And maybe Monday will suck even more.
It's only a temporary thing.
Every day won't suck.
Really, how can things suck when your pool is clean and you cleaned it better that the previous pool 'boy'?:)
Good going Rose. Now you're the "pool girl"!!!! Way to go!! I'm sure you'll do a much better job at it than he ever did.
Moving furniture sounds like a great idea. Out with the old way in the the new "Rose" way.
My friend Anne called this afternoon, she said she could take me for my colonoscopy in December and asked if I could help her paint next weekend.
What I am truly enjoying is having the TV all to myself. No more watching reruns of half hour sitcoms over and over again. Can't get enough CSI, Criminal Minds and football/hockey.
Wish though that I could stop the mini movies that have been plaguing my mind today. Little flicks of bad times. They invade when I least expect them. They are annoying me to no end.
Thanks for your support Richard!!:eek::D
Actually, thanks to everyone here for your support. You'll never know how much I've appreciated the comments. How when I'm down I read thru them all again and regain strength to continue.
But you're not born alone, mom was there. And for me, she continues to be there. We talk every day, sometimes twice a day. I can't thank her enough for everything she's done and doing for me.
ahhh you picked good shows :D
when the bad thoughts creep in... turn up the volume :D
Quote:
Originally Posted by Queen of Poop
Mom will always be there, I miss my mom's advice, admonishments, her voice, laugh and I'd really like for someone to get 'angry' with me and tell me to (go home and) GO TO SLEEP.:eek:
Now?
I am by myself and have to be happy, disgusted, tough on and harsh on me.
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Yep, having the remote all to yourself effing ROCKS!:)
Richard, shall I just tell you "portate bien?" ;) Or is that your Dad's job? ;) I bet you hear your mom's voice echoing inside your brain still, and likely always will! Me, I don't look like my mom, but I laugh like her, strangely enough!
Gayle, Rose, glad you are both doing well.
I identify a little with the gals.Quote:
Originally Posted by Karen
Mom left, I am saddled with a house, 'kids' and a desire to look into the future. Funny you mention DAD! He would have been 90 today and still would have said little about anything.
But, he would have been 'on guard' for me. That male sentinel, watching everything I do and shaking his head when I did something stupid, then went to him for advice!
Now? I have to figure things out for myself.:eek::D
It's an club we all belong to eventually. :( We just have to pay the dues!
P.s. I have to laugh because I still can see him shoot me the "What are you doing" look when I brought him a simple problem that had me totally perplexed. Me voy a portatme bien.
Sometimes I try the radio when my mind starts on those bad thoughts. Don't know why but that seems to make them slow down.Quote:
Originally Posted by sparks19
I am so glad things are looking up for you! :D KEEP it up :)
Rose, once he's out life will be good :cool: Take it one day at a time!
To make up for my behavior I would like to dedicate a song...
Up! by Shania Twain.
It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing wants to go my way
Yeah, it just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily
Even my skin is acting weird
I wish that I could grow a beard
Then I could cover up my spots
Not play connect the dots
I just wanna disappear
Up--up--up--
Can only go up from here
Up--up--up--Up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up--up--up--
There's no way but up from here
Even something as simple as
Forgettin' to fill up on gas
There ain't no explanation why
Things like that can make you cry
Just gotta learn to have a laugh
When everything is goin' wrong
Don't worry, it won't last for long
Yeah, it's all gonna come around
Don't go let it get you down
You gotta keep on holding on
It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing wants to go my way
Yeah, it just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily
Up--up--up--
Can only go up from here
Up--up--up--Up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up--up--up--
There's no way but up from here
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh-- I'm going up
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah...
Thanks Richard! She's one of my favorites.
Having a very emotional day today. It sucks. Have shed a few tears, but not for him. Diego has been a very sucky boy cat today though, he's working on making mommy feel better by napping on my lap for an hour here, and an hour there.
Have also made up my list of what we own at our lake house. He's at a disadvantage, I've a photographic memory.
I'm sorry for your emotional day, it is hard to 'itemize' your life.Quote:
Originally Posted by Queen of Poop
I have to start that paperwork tomorrow. :(
Still feels like someone is sitting on my chest.
I'm glad Diego is there for you, we are all still thinking of you, Gayle.
Keep your head above water.
I think both you gals are doing great, considering what you've been going thru. Yeah - I know - easy for me to say - right???
But seriously, you sound like you're on the right path and going in the right direction. It will take time, but all good things are worth waiting for.
And Rose - you have the pool. I'd take that over a husband any old day! :D
Keeping on keeping on , ladies!!!! You both are doing fantastic. Keep thinking positive about your wonderful new lives ahead. Hard to see now but not far away!!!:)
Girls - just keep in mind that many of us are following this thread and we are behind you every step on the way. You are doing great and we are all so proud of you. You go girls!!!
I was just reading how PT is a happy place, and folks like to come and enjoy pictures and stories, and I always have too.
But, I am in a world of sadness now. I haven't laughed in 7 weeks. Even TV shows of happy people bring me down in a way.
I've always been happy (not particularly a 'cheery-smiley' person) but deeply content and grateful. Even with years of chronic pain, I managed to get out of bed and be thankful it's not any worse, and my husband was there, loving me. I dread getting out of bed now. I know the cats are hungry and I gotta try to make some money this day, if available to me. Other than that, I just go through the motions of life.
I appreciate a place that we can come with our not so happy news and thoughts, and the support from other people, who don't even know us, but can sympathize with our plights. Thank you all for your responses, it matters a lot if you don't have many people to talk to face to face.
Checking in this morning, sending you both cheerful morning thoughts - but quietly, in case you (like all my siblings and father) are not 'morning people.'
You can bring your troubles here any time; we'll do what we can for both of you. I hope the "I can't get out of bed" stage is short lived, and I hope the kitties give you more comfort. They will if you let them. We're here to listen.
Rose, many of us have been at that point where getting out of bed took more energy than it was worth. I have not great words of advice, but sometimes just going through the motions of life is a start. Getting out of bed, feeding the cats (and yourself) is something to be proud of. Just take things one day at a time, or even one hour if you need to...remember we are here for you
I have to say I'm not having trouble getting out of bed. That could be because I'm sleeping on an air mattress on the floor. Best I could do at this time. I am hoping the divorce settlement will get me some furniture so I didn't want to buy other stuff. I am also a serious morning person, up between 4 and 5 every day. Cali and Diego have no qualms about making sure I know they're hungry too.
My biggest issue now are the memories that won't stop popping into my head. I am hopeful that when I see the counsellor next week she can help me deal with them and the sheer unbelief of how my life has gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this.
All the Christmas commercials on TV are killing me these days. They make me so sad. Christmas was always made a big thing by me for him and his kids. Now I don't know what to do. This one's going to be hard.
You're right Gayle, this time of year is particularly hard to deal with.Quote:
Originally Posted by Queen of Poop
I 'made' Christmas too, for him and his family who have always come down from Ohio, for the last 12 years. (his family spent 6-8 weeks a year at our place, in fact)
I don't want to see the decorations or hear the Christmas music, but it is next to impossible, if you even consider being in a public place.
I don't know what I'll do. It is so sad, not going to get that real Christmas tree, but I know I don't want to do it now.:(
Won't you spend the Holidays with your parents, Gayle?
I hope your counsellor session goes well and gives you some relief and guidance.
Rose, I may visit my parents at Christmas, it really depends on the roads. My mom has already made me promise if its snowing to just stay put. We lost 2 of my siblings in car accidents so she's a little paranoid, but rightly so.
I could end up here, in my little apartment with the kittens by myself on Christmas. My office closes from Dec 24 to Jan 2, long time to be home alone. Trying not to think that far ahead though.
Had a good day today. Completed gathering more info for the lawyer. Didn't get all sad over it today.
Hoping for another good day tomorrow.
Wouldn't it be terrific if you two ladies could get together at Christmas?
I can't help it. I'm a dreamer. :)
Who's house can we stay at that is midway between Calgary and Orlando?Quote:
Originally Posted by Daisy and Delilah
Anybody in Kansas want some holiday visitors?
Hey, Gayle - I don't know what's up on the 25th. I would love to roast a free-range turkey and do the trimmings. The last few Christmases it's been just me and Mom.
You and Rose - maybe some friends will invite you over, especially if they know your situation.
Or maybe you'll get a chance to have a university student over who is too far from home to spend the holidays there.
Anybody out there willing? C'mon Pet Talkers!! :)Quote:
Originally Posted by rosethecopycat
rose and gayle, i am sending you middle of the night thoughts and cyber hugs...
Too bad that you're not in Ohio because you could come to my home. Perhaps the two of you could get together and invite others who may not have anywhere to go for the holidays. When I got divorced, no one invited me so I decided to do the inviting. It was lovely and I've done it every year since. :)
Thanks for the info Richard. Maybe it will help.
For the most part I had a good day today. Until I was riding the train home, listening to my ipod. I started thinking again how unbelievable this whole thing is. Now I'm in a bit of a funk.
Tomorrow my task is to finish my list of the acreage house and what is there.
Not thinking there will be alot of sleeping tonight.
I'm thinking of Rose and Gayle this evening and Gayle, I hope you will get a restful night's sleep.
Mikey wanted to send a message to you and Rose:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v7...rlovemikey.jpg
His note says
' Feel better and sleep like dis
-love mikey'
:p
FEEL BETTER and try and sleep :)
Thank you. You made me cry.Quote:
Originally Posted by Alysser
:( That wasn't my initial aim. I hope it wasn't sad tears? I am an idiot, I know. :o I'm sorry if I upset you.
You didn't, it was just so sweet. Thank you.Quote:
Originally Posted by Alysser
Okay good, I have more with my digi camera too. :) I just need to upload them. I hope it cheered you up a bit, I'm glad I didn't upset you. Thank god, I would've felt horrible.
I look forward to seeing more photos. I am cheered, not upset. Thank you for the thought. And please give Mikey a big hug and kiss from me.Quote:
Originally Posted by Alysser
Alyssa, that is so nice. You are such a sweetheart!!
Gayle and Rose:::thinking of you both and sending good thoughts out for a wonderful night's sleep and some peace in your lives.:)