Why do you live each day?

Hey Annie! There are a few things really. There's my son Mike; he works full time, is putting himself through college at night and wants to be a prosecutor on child abuse cases. Mike spoils me rotten, anything I want he gives me. He adores his grandmother and will help anyone anytime. Then there's Groucho, a real kitty character. I just love that little guy so much. His antics are always good for a laugh (though at times he doesn't seem to think so). Then there's my job. I work for the state Office of Child Support Enforcement as the paralegal assistant to our attorney. I absolutely love it! Before I came to the policy unit, I did several other things directly involved with enforcement. The job is a pressure cooker on a slow day and we don't get many of them. After several years of working on individual cases, the job I'm in now is a challenge. When a question comes in from a county or another state. my job is to research federal and state laws, court rules, regulations, procedures manuals, whatever resource that applies. Then put it all together and determine a policy/procedure position in response. All in all, I've been doing this for 24 years and it has never been the same thing twice. But no matter how crazy things at the office get, at the end of the day it's nice to think that just maybe in some small way I made a positive difference to a family somewhere. Love my son, love my kitty, love my job. All is right with the world.

I haven't figured it out yet. I don't know why i get up. I have really no reason to. Except for those beautiful dogs outside and my horsey but thats it. I have no other reason i guess...:o

I decided to do something about my sadness and the way things are going in my life. I had to re evaluate what I do not like about my life.

I do know that I want to move out of Oklahoma, the land of the boring. Anyway, I am hoping to move to Washington, maybe get a place in the country so I can have the space and freedom to garden if I want, and to own horses. Of course Star would love the open space as well. I want to settle down and start a family. Of course moving takes time and money, not to mention, my sister is having a baby this summer and I want to be here for it. After that though, we're outta here. Now until we have the money, I am going to be taking some classes at a near by school. The one I enrolled in is a painting class. This will get me out of the house and among people, since I rarely leave the house other than to workout. I know it's just a small change but it's something to look forward to.

I also know that my ultimate goal in my life is to open a no kill animal shelter. Animals have played such a big role in my life and in a positive way, I want to give back.

I appreciate all of your kind words and wisdom. It really does help to have you guys. Thank you so much.

Annie

Momcat,

Your son sounds like a real treasure!! My mother always taught me that you can always tell the way a man will treat his wife/girlfriend by the way he treats his mother. Boy was SHE right!!!!

Palomino21,

Glad to hear you're starting to perk up. Sounds like you've got a plan!

Annie -
so glad that you have a plan for now and that things seem to be perking up! When I was at my lowest and starting to pull up - I also took a painting (watercolor) class at the highschool adult education series!!:) It was my first venture back to the world and normalcy. YAY for you!! Things will get better! Planning and looking to the future, even if it seems a small thing is all we can do. Hugs to you!!
Debbie

Annie, I really am happy to read that you have honed in on the problems and already are finding solutions.

It is wonderful to have goals to work towards. I sure like the sounds of your goals and I wish you the greatest success.

You are going to love being an Auntie too!

Sounds like a plan, Annie! Getting out of the house and connecting with others who share your interests is a wonderful place to start. This really is a wonderful world filled with fantastic opportunities for those willing to take a risk and reach out for them. Hold on to your dreams and keep moving in any direction as long as it's forward. As one of my high school teachers always used to say, "Columbus took a chance and look what he found!"