This re-thinking is stressful!
I had a good night's sleep. That is good! Ti slept somewhere other than my bed and little Juni (the itch) slept right next to me. She really is a little sweetheart. Full of energy, sweet as honey and so darn cute! She is a fierce little thing, but not mean. She does not play FOR KEEPS. Ti does.
Ti is on the porch right now and believe me, it is nice to get put there rather than a room. The porch is 40 feet long and 8 feet wide with all the accomodations of a hotel for cats! He will have to stay there until he leaves. I even have a TV out there and watch the news each night......while reading my mail etc. I don't think I will put Juni with him, not knowing what he is capable of at this point.
Since Ti's nasty treatment of Miley, I have been watching how he plays with Juni. He traps her every now and then and mounts her, not sexually, but covers her completely. She is so tiny and wirey that she wiggles out from under him....but I wonder as she gets older, if she will be so agile. Thus, I will not leave her alone with Ti. Sad, but true.
I just know that once I see Miley in a couple of hours, I will be so convinced that giving Ti a new home is the right thing to do.
Do I feel ok with keeping him a while longer? Yes, its ok. You know, I have been through so much with him that adding a couple of weeks to the ordeal will be ok, knowing that he will have a really good chance of finding a good home this time. I really, really like the nice and oh so good VT, retired, bengal breeder, Tamara. ....I was hoping she would have gotten back to me sooner this week. I mentioned that I could deal with the prospective new homes myself and she insisted that she handle it! She is so nice and so loves the Bengal breed. She said one of the reason she got out of the business was that too many breeders were in it for the money only and not careful enough for her. She said she usually "petted out" most of her litters, as she couldn't consider them more than pets to be loved even though many were show quality.
So here I am, with the same three silly cats I have had since Juni arrived! I guess I will have to set a deadline for closure on this situation.
Off to the shower to get ready to pick up Ms. Miley. I have Ti locked on the porch. There is no way he can get in the house. I will lock the door to Miley's room as well, in case Ti breaks through a window to get in. I just doubt that, but you never know about Ti!
Thanks for all of your wonderful words and thoughts. I can handle this, it sounds much worse than it really is..... I usually spend my time "getting things done and over with" and this situation keeps dragging on and on! Yikes.
Thank you Bastests Mom and Barbara, for considering such kind acts from such a distance away!
And thank you Vermontcat for being such a good support system so close to home.
And thank you Robyn, sweet mom to everyone, for your thoughts and prayers. . And Pam, thank you too, your words of support have been good....
And Aly and Jen and everyone, thank you.
I promise this will have a happy ending.
COME ON ENDING!