Aly,
Well, I guess I will add my two cents, for whatever it is worth.
I am a relatively new volunteer at a shelter in Burlington VT. I do enjoy it and have managed to keep my head above water when it comes to dealing with the staff and not adopting every pet that comes in the door. Yes, I have been TOLD in no uncertain terms, what to NOT do with prospective owners and also yelled at a couple of times, for telling some people that we had puppies in another location and that we had kittens somewhere else too. Yikes, is that such a horrible thing? Well, anyway, what I learned about MYSELF is that I am not willing to give up playing with the pitiful animals at the shelter, and volunteering just because someone yelled at me and did not give me the answers that I wanted to hear. At the time, I wanted to walk out, but after cooling off, I said NO, I am not going to give in to nasty folks.
There is always a pecking order in businesses, charities etc. and if you don't get with the program and keep awake as to who runs the show, then you can easily become a target. My guess is that someone didn't like the idea of YOU running the show when it came to animals being kept together or adopted etc. I am sure I am not right totally, but it seems to me that even the director went behind your back (if that's what it is called) and did not do what you had thought they had agreed to do.
I would sit back and think about your level of dedication to this particular group/charity/business/shelter/employer and decide if there was a real message in what they did or if they were not hearing you clearly or if they really wanted to tick you off for some reason. I trust you will have worked some of this out by now, with the director etc.
You know, you cannot save all the animals Aly. And one of the things that I discovered about myself while being at the shelter is that I can't have all the animals....and that there are other good homes for the animals to go to. Although I would LOVE to take theses pets home, I cannot. I want to give someone else the opportunity to have the furry friends.
I know your heart is in the right place for sure and you give these animals your all, but you must leave some space for yourself to relax and get away from your work. Why not volunteer doing something else, rather than eat sleep and drink the shelter. I know, I know, they need you, but YOU NEED YOU TOO.
I hope you are not upset when reading this, but it is difficult to keep my trap shut on this one.
I feel so sorry for you - that you were so misteated by your employer and fellow employees. And we here at Pet Talk cannot undo any of that for you. Sometimes things happen to you for no good reason, but it ends up teaching you a good lesson. What is the lesson here? Sure does beat me, but I my only guess is that you may have learned something other than having heart ache for days, brought on by your co-workers and employers and not getting the pup you wanted and not having the kittens stay together.
Chin Up ALY and keep yourself balanced with the rescue/shelter thing. You shouldn't be making yourself sick over this. Maybe a little vacation and a NEW EMPLOYER might do you some good.
Fondly,
SAS
(((((((((((ALY)))))))))))