September 20th, 2010... the day my world crumbled apart..

Dearest Isabel... I'm so sorry I didn't see this sooner. I am absolutely heartbroken for you. :(:(:( You are so very very kind and this is not fair that this has happened to you and your family. You are all in my thoughts. *HUGS*

Isabel- I am so so sorry. This is just too much.
All our best thoughts are with you and your family. I am at a loss of words.

Just saw this today:eek:.........

Oh goodness dear Isabel, what a tragedy............:(:(:(
I cannot find the words, cannot find the words to express my sorrow........
I can only say that you have my deepest sympathy is this tragedy.........

OMG, this must be so extremely hard to take.......

Dearest Isabel and family,
I am so sorry........... You are in our thoughts and prayers. Life is so fragil, but love is not. It is strong and the happy moments, wonderful times and loving gestures you shared will always be part of who you are.
Hugs.

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm in shock, I just saw this post. I never imagined that it would be this type of news. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

Amy

Isabel,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family ..... if I could simply be there to give you a hug ..... I would.

{{{{hugs}}}
Michelle

Oh Isabel, this is so very horrible. I wish there were words to help you get through this but it is path each must walk alone. I read the newspaper articles and you can be proud of your husband. He was a good man.

Beyond tragic. I am so, so sorry for your loss, Isabel.

Although a long time ago I lost a husband too and can empathise to a degree I still could not come close to knowing the pain & heartbreak you are going though in losing your man in such a sudden and awful way.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Prayers for you all.....I'm so sorry....

thank you all for your kindest words and prayers.. they are so much needed..

sometimes I feel like I´m going crazy.. sometimes I feel like I´m sleep with my eyes open.. so unmotivated.. don´t even wanna eat... it´s been hard to sleep... my eyes are popping out.. but I try get together and fix things as soon as I can.. I can´t keep my kid out of school for so long..

next week we are going to see some and see if we can get a scholarship or something...

all credit cards will be sent out the papers around next week to get them cancelled.. and still need to find out if he had any life insurance.. and if they are willing to pay if there was one..

things have been hard on me.. thankfully at my parents I´ve been having a couple things less to worry about.. such as food and shelter.. I mean I do have my place here.. but all my stuff hasn´t been moved over so it´s just an empty house..

once my stuff is here I´ll do some sort of sale.. esp the car.. I don´t need such fancy car... and besides if I´m left with a lil extra $ from it, that would help a lot...

next thing I need to do is find a job... tough.. as I need to be on my own and something I can do from home.. I cannot work for someone.. being I´ll be leaving in two months when baby arrives... but I need to get an income because by then we´ll be 3.. and I don´t wanna add that to my parents burden...

I also started a blog.. have been having the idea for so long, just didn´t knew about what.. and I think doing this will help me to vent, cry and such.. as well as keep a memory of how days go by.. maybe years from now I´ll show it to my kids..

http://notes-to-my-husband.blogspot.....html?spref=fb

Isabel, what a terrible tragedy for you and your family. I can read the heartbreak in your posts:(
I have a friend that's going through something very similar and lost her husband. She has twins. It's been hard for her but with family & friends she's getting through it and I know you will too.
Please know that I'm here for you if you need to talk. Call me any time.

Stay strong

Many (((HUGS)))
Anna

Isabel, here in the states if something like this happens the kids get social security until they are 18, is there anything like that in Mexico?

Please eat, you and the baby need the nourishment. I am sure your parents don't mind you being there, especially during this time, give yourself time to mourn and worry about the rest of the stuff later.

Hugs to you and the kids, I cant even imagine. :love: :love: :love:

I am so very sorry. Can you set up a fund at a bank we might be able to contribute to? Take advantage of the press to ask for donations to help you out. I think blogging/journaling is a help for many. Please take care of yourself for your kids. Loving thoughts to you and your family. :(

I have no words....what a horrible tragedy. Please know that I am holding you and your sweet family in my prayers. Please take care of yourself and don't be afraid to ask for help if you need it. :love:

Isabel, you are still in our thoughts and prayers, remember you and your little boy and girl-to-be are loved, so you need to take care of yourself, okay?

Still sending loving thoughts and thinking of you,Isabel. Let us know if we can help in anyway at all:love:

Isabel, I am just now seeing this. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. You and your family will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. Your blog is a very touching and sweet idea ((((hugs)))))

Sweet Isabelle, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through. I wish I could be there to comfort you in whatever way I can. My prayers are with you and your family.

Isabel, I am so sorry that I haven't seen this thread until now. I have had a busy week and didn't have time to log in to Pet Talk until now.
I am shocked and it's really hard to find the right words, just know that you have a lot of people here at Pet Talk who care about you and are willing to help you with whatever you need.
I am so sorry that you lost your husband so suddenly, it is such a tragedy.:(
Sending hugs to you and your family, Milly & Izzy send comforting purrs.

Oh Isabel... I'm so sorry to be reading this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope they get the guys who did this.

Isabel, just sending you some prayers and hugs. You will not be forgotten on this site - we are all here for you.

:love: Isabel me & the furr purr babies are sending lots more Prayers & Huggss.. You will always be in my Heart & Thoughts.. The Blog you wrote to your Dear Husband was so Touching & such a Great Tribute to Him.. God Bless You & the Babies..

THANK YOU!!.. it´s really great to have people like you in my life.. even virtually..

the pain is a bit more manageable.. but I think it´s because I´ve been focusing in getting things that need be done done and all that... but it still hurts.. badly...

I think I´ve found the school for my kid.. just need to consult with the hubs.. to see if it´s right..

I did went to the doctor last friday.. everything is fine with me and baby... she´s growing really nicely.. about a week ahead.. hope she doesn´t grows too much while still inside..

I´ve been eating.. don´t worry.. it´s just that sometimes I feel so blah about it..

as someone mentioned to me on PM.. you´re right, it really doesn´t seem right or fair to keep going... I don´t wanna move on... but there are thing that need me to...

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now a lil vent....

I read somewhere they were associating my husband with certain people he had NOTHING to do with.. absolutely nothing.. and saying he was like their protegee or something.. anything FAR from that.. it made me so mad..as a matter of fact that´s one of the reasons we left in the first place.. tehy could not give him his allowed 6 months license while other people way way below him had over a year in license... anyway he moved onto better things..

antother thing.. is that in some news, someone posted "I hope they catch the ones that did this and release them.. so that his family suffers what many suffer with his "system""... WTF??!!.. thank you for your good thoughts.. and besides it was NOT HIS system.. he just worked for it.. yeah it has it´s flaws but it´s not his fault nor ours for them to wish us that suffering..

so not worth it, but it made my blood boil

vent over...
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thank you for being here ((hugs back))

Dearest Isabel, i gasped in horror when i read your post, i just cannot believe it, this is so sad, so awful that this could happen to such a sweet couple as yourselves, you are such a brave young woman to come here and tell us, just know you are amongst people who love you and care and will be here to help you in anyway possible.

To read that nonsense regarding your husband must be so hurtful, just know it is not true and they are not worth it, that is just terrible to put you through anymore pain than you are already in.

As i go about my daily chores, i am thinking of you, and hoping that your heart will heal in time and that you will have the strength to get through this with the love and help of family, friends and PT friends here, my heart goes out to you at this incredibly difficult, sad and painful time,much love to you and your beautiful children, please take care of yourself,GIANT HUGS.:love::love::love::love:

I just wanted you to know that I have been thinking about you and your family every day, Isabel. I hope you are able to take things one day at a time. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help you. I know a lot of us on PT would like to help if we can.

Once again, Isabel, I am so sorry about your husband. I will be thinking of you, like I have been each day! :love:

Isabelle, I'm always thinking about you. I want you to know that I love you very much. I'm sorry people are saying negative things about your husband since he worked for the government. I know it makes you angry, but you and others know the truth. Believe me, I read the same trash in our papers.

I'm glad you saw your doctor and the baby is well.

Please take care of yourself and know you are dearly loved.

Some people speak up without proof, just wanna reach out and twist their necks! :mad:

I just wanted you to know I'm still thinking of and praying for you all. Glad to hear the baby is doing well.

All my best,
Crystal

Just wanted you to know i am also thinking of you, since reading your post i just cannot stop thinking about you and the terrible tragedy that has happened to you and your husbands family, life is so unfair, so unjust, please do let us know here at PT if we can help in any way, be it small or big, everyone here will bend over backwards to help in anyway they can, and yes you are loved by many here, and we all care about you and feel for you in this awful time in your life, i am so happy the baby is doing well,please take care of yourself too, i wish i could wave a magic wand and make it all go away for you with all my heart, blessings to you and everyone, thinking of you, lots of love from across the other side of the world.:love::love::love::love:

Isabel - just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you a lot and hope you and your babies are doing as best as you can. If there is anything we can do, please let us know. I am so very sorry again.....

Sending lots of prayers, love, and (((HUGS))) your way......

Tracy-

Still thinking about you and sending good thoughts for you and your family.

You are still in my thoughts Isabel. *HUGS* :(:love::(

sending positive vibes and strength to you to do what you need to move forward.....

so far so good...

I admit I feel guilty as I haven´t allowed myself to cry.. really really cry... I´ve always been a tough gal.. but it seems I´ve got stuff to settle and that has kept me for let it loose...

I have thought as if it he were on a trip... daydreaming, I know.. but it kinda feels that way sometimes.. it just can´t be real.. just not yet...

yesterday we were out with my mom to pay the house and some other stuff.. I wasn´t crying at the time but needed a tissue.. I asked my kid, who was on the back, if he saw any tissue box or something back there.. he said in such a calmed way : "no... just the one you gave me when my dad died"... needless to say I choked right there and now needed more tissues..

and later that night.. he was playing with the phone as if people were calling and he was taking the calls and such.. he picked up the phone.. talked a bit.. then handed it over to me saying: "you´ve got a call.. it´s my dad calling you from heaven"... I broke down...

it´s really hard knowing he is not here and won´t be anymore.. I´ve said it many many times.. but it really is.. it´s awful...

I really appreciate all your kind words and prayers.. :)

Isabel, this is just a thought -I hope that Corinna has
gone to your husband and introduced herself.

Some prayers are being offered for you today - and go ahead and have a good cry whenever you feel like it. Grief is real - and your son will understand and it may help him too with his own feelings.

xxoo

Isabel - if someone here or you can PM me your email address, there is something I would like to send you.

{{{hugs}}}:love::love::love:

I am so sorry to hear this...It is awful that someone would do this to your family and then on top of it people being disrespectful. :(

*HUGS* and prayers sent your way. I wish I knew what else to say.

OMG, I didn't see this until now!! I have no words to tell you how sorry I am!!! You and your kids are in my thoughts. My heartfelt condolences to you and your family!!

(((HUGS)))

Kirsten