Can I kill myself NOW?

Oh, and any suggestions/points would be appreciated for tonight, if we have the meeting about Major coming inside (which doesn't mean much...but its a start)

I know there are alot of good things I could say, but they aren't coming to me.

ONE of the things that I will discuss...mom said when we got him, he could come inside. He can't. Why? Because "she thought he needed to come inside, once she realized he didn't have too..." and...I know there ARE good replies to that, I'm just not sure what they are.

Also feel free to contact my mom(dukedogsgrandma) She's just retired from being a guidans counselor at a school with kids your age. So, she may have some better info for you. If you want me to, I can have her write to you. I hope it gets better for you. I know you must be sad right now. If the weather isn't too bad this weekend, I'm going to try and get that picture done and mail it to you. I've got a couple of other things as well. Maybe that will help to cheer you up.

How did it go last night - did you and your parents have a meeting, MariaM?

As for the menopause thing, my mom is also 52 and she hasn't even started yet. So you never know. Not that I'm trying to say that is why she is acting that way towards you or anything, I wouldn't know.

How long until you can live on your own?

Maria, I'm so sorry you're going thru all this right now. Teen years are hard enough without dealing with a rough home life. Believe me, I know. try the 1-800 number that was suggested. If nothing else, it may be a place for you to vent and get some professional advice.

For now, just keep lovin on Major. Nothing beats the unconditional love he can give you. We're all for you here, vent all you want! Feel free to PM me any time, ok? :)

Let us know what happened with the 'discussion' last night. Hopefully everything went ok. Keep smiling. It's the world's best defense! :D

Please believe me when I say it will get better. The younger years are rough on everyone. I get along with my mom now, but we had to lose all of my siblings for that to happen. 2 died and one went to jail. So she was stuck with just me. You and your sweet baby will be in my prayers. Please take care.

I hope you all had a talk...

First I want to say that sometimes I feel the same way, but luckily my mom loves animals and would never want them outside.

In winter(here anyway--there too I believe, alot of places in Canada) they have radio warnings and everything to NOT leave your pets outside for very long and all kinds of things like that, as alot of times its way too cold.

I also think that animal control or something could take pets away if people leave them out in that weather(especially after radio warnings), and if not, they should be able to.

Also you could bring up that HUMANS could survive living outside, but that doesn't mean we want to!

I also want to add that if she still wants to keep him outside all winter, If *I* were in your position, *I* would definatly try to get him another home before winter, where he'd be inside where he belongs.

I know how hard that would be for you, but you have to think of Major..

You don't hate them! You just think you do....my friend has the same kind of problem! She really takes it out on her friends mostly me! She physically and verbally abuses me, of course I defend myself which has caused a few fist fights. Next time she hits me bye bye friendship, I'm not putting up with her anymore, especially since she hits me in public, that really made me make up my mind, the problem is my BFF is friends with her and I always wanna hang out with my BFF(who luckily is kinda holding a bit of a grudge too, by High School she'll be in her own little freak group!MUEHEHEHEHE) anyways waaaaaaaaaaaaaay off topic! Maybe you should talk to them, usually at that "time" of month girls/women turn evil! My mom has been horrible lately and it's driving me insane, picking at me for everything, I just tell her to stop nagging at me and I go somewhere FAAR away(a walk,out to see my bunnies,ect.)! Calling friends and pets really help, keep a diary too(me and my BFF plan on stealing my "friends" little diary, we truely wanna know what she thinks of us!)....Anyyways give them a talk, it's not going to hurt, I understand most people don't like talking to their mom's about anything but if your not close try to get close to her. And for the sister well sisters(ESPECIALLY older sisters are the biggest pains in the ass,scuse my language:() I have an older sister who used to bully the crap outta me and always hit me, but now she's practically afraid of me, hehehehe! I showed her what I was made of and she knows if she messes with me she's in for it....HINT: joing a wrestling team really helps for older sisters and abusive friends! Just tell your sister how rude she is, video tape her being mean to you, then show her it, she'll how rediculous she really is! Anyways good luck with the family! I hope this info helps!

Your mom sounds SO much like mine! I do love my mom alot, she does LOTS for me and is really nice most of the time, a cool gret mom BUT....she always seems to want to be in control! Okay I have ALL my own money saved up $155 for spaying my rabbit,Spice, and got $30 extra, anyways I've been saving for a WHILE and when I can afford it I don't trust my vet very well, then I find this place about 30 minutes away and it costs $170 for spaying, 5 vets I called who don't do spays recommened this place, I called and made an appointment, well my mom gets extremely MAD at me and says mom:"Why can't we just got to the place closer to home and $170 BUCKS OMG YOUR OUT OF YOUR MIND YOUR NOT SPENDING THAT MUCH ON A GOFFY RABBIT WHO ISN'T EVEN SICK!SHES NOT GONNA GET CANCER SHES HEALTHY BLAH BLAH BLAH" me:"mom you dont' understand!I want to take Spice there, it is SAFE there and we don't even know the backgrounds of Downsview vet!You care more about money then my rabbits life! I love that rabbit and I'm not letting anything happen to her!" older sister:"don't even get her spayed she's not going to DIE your wasting your money!" me: be quiet Tara I know what I'm doing and just because you are gonna throw in your opinion doesn't mean I'm gonna change my mind" mom: "It's either downsview or not spaying!"

She gives me FRIGGIN options! I should be able to choose for my bunnies sake, and if my mom won't drive me then I cant get there! This happened yesterday.....at supper and it makes me mad! My dad agrees with my mom(he always does,itz a parent thing!) and my little sister says: "she's going to die if you get her operated on just leave her be" well let's see here I kno WAY MORE about rabbits than any member in my ENTIRE family(grandparents,cousins,aunts,uncles,ect.) I think I should decide, I read and read and read about rabbits while they dont read a single thing about them, they gather their info from me. And i DO know what u mean...UGH...most moms nag and nag like that, they change their minds then disapoint the hec outta ya!You look forward to it then "sorry not today" "maybe next week" I just don't understand....

Thanks Val. I'll PM you maybe tomorrow...I have to go to bed soon, school tomorrow.

I'm sorry, I reply to the rest tomorrow...I have to go..