update on Ellie-mae

yes i am pretty heartbroken, even though i knew her time here was limited, you just still are not as prepared as you think, she is such a special cat, believe me we all have one in our life times and she is it.

The dble dose of steroids is keeping her appetite up thank goodness, she is very fussy though, i think i have about ten different cans of food open in the fridge,will end up throwing them out, as my other two on prescription diet from the vets, shame some starving kitty is not around i can give it to, and she has turned her nose up at all of them, her chicken,fillet steak and prime mince treats, she is not interested in,and i got some snapper yesterday, was not keen on that, in fact she is just eating whiskas chicken and salmon, and seems to prefer that, so that is what she is getting.

She ate well this morning and is resting as you will see, i have posted a pic of my wee girl, with her new heart shaped pillow, it has I LOVE YOU on the other side..,picked it up at the 2 dollar and more shop yesterday.

Her breathing is somewhat laboured and there is a wee cough ,but just now and then, certainly not too major at the moment, gosh part of me is still hoping this is a reaction to the vaccine, despite my vets confirmation,who i trust completely, Ellie is a battler and she won't give up easily, and neither will her mama.

She no longer has diarrhea, thank goodness for both of us ,but especially her, all normal again, and i am thinking since it is a cat flu injection, could it give her some respiratory problems, i know it is wishful thinking on my part, but i can only but hope, i guess it probably is advanced cancer to her lungs, and her time with me is limited, but fingers and all paws crossed , i would LOVE her to prove them wrong.

Poor babies weight has dropped , now only 2.9 kgs,she was 3.1 before this awful episode,and used to be a healthy 4.3kg , which is what she was before the illness and in the pic in my siggy.

I hope we can at least maintain this, and not see her go down further, vet assures me when she gives up eating all together, it will be her time, so eating is of the utmost importance right now for her, and for me to make sure she does eat,lots of coaching, loving words, stroking and ellie responds to it rather well,takes time and patience, which i have got, well at least number one, patience i have to work on , but for Ellie, i can do anything i have to.

Anyhow for now she is somewhat stable and i know it could change at any time, but i will just cherish my special time with her and continue to love her to bits and tend to her every need as i have always done before and during her illness.