Christofur

Thank you, everyone, for your love and caring.

I wish I hadn't done it.

I'm so very sorry, Pat! You know, it sounds like little Christofur was a very sick kitty. A brave fighter, yes, but sometimes the illness is stronger. You did everything possible to make his life comfortable, and I'm sure he knew how much he was loved. Sometimes these little fur angels just come to our world for a short time, maybe in order to teach us something, or to make us learn from them... When they finished their task, they're ready to leave. Maybe Christofur was one of these angels, you may find the answer to this in your heart... :love:

R.I.P. little Christofur, and enjoy your new healthy life at the Bridge!

Oh, Pat...dear lady, I know you wish you hadn't done it. :love: When you were with him for that half hour, you said he was barely conscious, and even had slight seizures during that time.

Better that he was sent to the Bridge with love rather than passing during another massive seizure. That would have been horrible for him and for you, especially if you had found him afterwards at home.

I am sorry for those words...but you did the right and only thing for Christofur. :love::love::love:

:( Oh no Pat = I am so so sorry to just now be reading this.. I am so Sorry for the Loss of this Adorable Baby.. Hey you did the best you could & May He Rest In Peace Now.. Play Hard At The Bridge Baby Boy.. Sending Lots of Hugggss for you Pat.. He is a Angel now Looking Over Us..

I'm getting heat from the people I got him from. How could I let him go so soon?

I am so very, very sorry that I did.

The woman who had him before, she would NEVER come out with any actual information as to what had been done for him..

My vet lowered his phenobarb dose because she thought we were starting out with this. Now this woman (Christine her name is; he was named Christofur for her) is saying that her vet had started his dose 4x higher because he really needed it what with all that had gone on so far. WHY hadn't she let me know any of this?

I asked her several times if he had seen a vet about the seizures and if medications or anything else had been tried and how they had worked out. She just got outraged that "I'm asking her to do even more, spend more money on him, when she's so broke, it costs so much to keep things going here.."

WHY didn't she just tell us what had actually been done with HIM.. so far, I wasn't asking her to spend more money on him.

Like I said, I was so afraid, after he went into a second round of cluster-seizures after being monitored and medicated all day.. and before he went into that round the vet had called me saying she'd noticed his eyeballs a bit swollen and wanted my permission to give him some eye med to check that out.. she was afraid he might have scratched his eyes wihile seizing.

THIS IS SOMETHING CHRISTINE HAD SAID SHE WAS AFRAID HE WOULD DO, TOO.. before I agreed to take him!!!!!

I was worried then that he might do something like that in the abstract when I wasn't home.. this was before I knew anything about CLUSTER SEIZURES and the likelihood that that kind of scratching could happen during one and the strong possibility that such seizures might happen again at any time, like when I'm not home for several hours.

I have been crying all day about him, about how much I miss him and how sweet a little guy he was (IS) and deserved better, and should I have held on a little longer to see if anyone else I knew might have some other suggestions?

I am so lonely and heartbroken. It's nice to think that he's whole and healthy and waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge, but when it really comes down to it, I don't know if I really believe that will happen.. I fear it's more that all we have is this life and if we blow it here, we have no way to make things better or right again. And this innocent little creature had to suffer so.

:love: Oh my Pat you needs some Bigg Huggss Right Now.. Huggss Huggss

You did the best you could.. Do Not let them beat you up over this.. Its always easier to pass the buck to the next person in charge.. His time was coming & I feel sure they knew this & that is why they got you to take him so quickly.. They wanted the heat & the monkey off of their backs.. Again may I stress you did the best you could.. This baby boy is Resting now & in Heaven & in no more pain.. I wish I could be there to Hugg You.. Huggss Huggss Pat

I'm so so sorry to hear about Christofur.

My prays are with you. Thank you for taking him and showing him love.

Melissa

I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with this. Truly, I don't think you had a choice. You had your vet advising you based on Christofur's condition at the time, and the former owners were to blame for any lack of information. And really, if the only option was to keep the poor little guy heavily medicated, what kind of life would that have been?

You did your very best for a very ill kitty, and that's all that can be asked of any of us.

You did nothing wrong. His quality of life was declining by the hour. So if he could have been kept alive on HIGH doses of pheno, what kind of life would that have been? You did good. I loved the little guy, even if I never met him, and I don't think keeping him strongly sedated would have been any kind of life with quality.:love: Love is a powerful thing, and it is here to show us that it is stronger than death. Is there a Bridge? Who knows about that, but I do know there is SOMETHING after death because I have had one of my RB kitties contact me and tell me things that really did come to pass. You betcha we will see them again!

Pat, (((Hugs)

Please don't beat yourself up about this. You know, the Vet knows and
we know, you did everything humanly possible to help Christofur & give him
a chance to have a comfortable life. You did your best & that is all anyone
can do.

Thank you for your support and encouragement, dear friends.

I just sent Christine an e-mail in response to her hysterical one for today, about all the stuff with the vet. I calmly asked, Why didn't you tell me all this about the vets when I asked you (more than once) about whether he'd seen a vet about the seizures, if medications or anything had been tried, and if so what had happened.

I suppose she'll respond with another tirade, but at least I feel a little better now.. that I did what I did based on what I knew at the time and that it was because of her that that was all I knew. I don't feel so much like a murderer now.

I talked with my vet this afternoon and told her about all this. She told me I had done absolutely the right thing, and that all the awful things I'd been afraid might happen to Christofur if I let him keep going really were at least as bad as I had feared and I saved him from those.

Thank you again, wonderful people. I am still heartbroken about dear little Christofur. He deserved much better.

Love from Pat :love::love::love::love::love::love:

I think from this moment forward you should delete, without reading, any emails from this Christine person.

You did what you had to do for Christofur, considering the quality of his life. Do NOT let that person get in your head!

Amen, I agree. He is at peace now and you will see him again someday. He knows you tried to help him.

That woman had her chance and she blew it. Try not to waste your time on her.

Christofur was a beautiful kitty and he knew you loved him. Pat, you did the best you could for him and didn't let him suffer any more. Christofur's story is sad because he was so ill and died young, but he also knew a lot of love thanks to you.

Pat, I'm so very sorry you have to deal with this, in addition to your grief! :(
But I know one thing for sure: you are NOT a murderer! I know if you or your vet had seen the tiniest chance that he might improve, or get some life quality back, you would have taken it.

Christofur was a very sick kitty, who is now no longer suffering...

(((HUGS)))